is to nourish your dreams and then let them come true,
but if your illusions turn into disappointments,
I will try to give you the strength to continue to hope (fight)."
It's been a while since I've been around here, it's my fault that sometimes I get lost among the thousand things to do, to write and the thousand thoughts.
Participating in the WEEKEND ENGAGEMENT was a healthy weekly habit that I have to restore and I think the time has come... Let's start again today!
This is also an opportunity to keep in touch with dear @galenkp who has always supported me here (which makes me happy) and has guided and advised me but, above all, has made me feel his closeness outside of here which is very important to me; of course I thank him for everything and I will never stop doing so.
I don't want this to seem like an act of flattery but I think it is a necessary act because we must always say thank you to those who have been kind to us.
Maybe this also touches on one of the topics of this weekend, the right... I say that I feel obliged to do things and often I get so caught up that I forget my rights and, I confess, that I don't feel entitled to anything in my life, at least not currently.
But no!
This is not the topic I want to touch on today!
The idea I chose is the last one, if I could choose an age, what age would I like to stay at?
The answer at the moment is simple and also has a precise period... From September 23rd, currently, if I could choose I would stay at this year... Or rather from the period that goes from September 23rd 2023 to the one that is about to arrive!
It has been a very complicated year and we have experienced many misadventures even if, fortunately, things seem to be slowly getting better.
It is good to clarify right away that this choice of mine, as much as it is not nice to admit it, is dictated by fear.
I would probably opt for the last 9 months of our life rather than the whole year because our Samuele in his first 3 months of life has been through a lot and I certainly would not want him to relive those situations.
You will have understood that I would stay at this period precisely because of the birth of our Little One; the last few months, even between check-ups and visits, have been wonderful and peaceful for Samuele who has been very well thanks to the first operation he had.
In October he will undergo the second operation which is delicate, they say it is not risky or in any case that the risks are due to the age of the little one but, in any case, it is a type of operation that at the Bambin Gesù in Rome they perform every day.
Now I prefer not to think about anything, I stay optimistic and try to think positively even though anxiety and fear pervade me every day; I haven't had a good sleep in over a year, one of those where you say you rested well, my sleep is short and also full of nightmares.
Except in cases like this...
Anyway it doesn't matter, what I'm going through isn't relevant, the fundamental thing is that Samuele is well and for this I would be willing to donate my life.
I don't want to go off topic although, I must admit, this post gives me a little outlet that allows me to let it all out.
There are many snapshots of the beautiful moments we have experienced, after the first operation we are trying to build many happy memories and we will continue to do so in the future!
There is Easter, spent in the company of close friends who, in order not to leave us alone in Rome, invited us to their house in Teramo, it was a beautiful day...
Christmas, spent in Rome in the company of other friends and their family... The people who have been close to us and have given us love are truly so many, Samuele has many Grandparents, Uncles and Cousins!
Lately, after one of the check-ups we went to Tuscany and, above all, Montaione to introduce our Little Baby to the Land and the Country that his Dad feels like home in absolute terms...And let's say that Mom doesn't mind either, eh eh!
You will have understood the moment that I would like to freeze and why so I would say that the post has fulfilled its tasks!
I have inserted some photos of various moments of this year and I hope that they can convey to you a little of the feelings that we have experienced which, certainly, have been contrasting but, among which, it is undeniable that there is also a lot of happiness and I prefer to take and keep that without thinking about what was difficult, complicated and tiring and what brought suffering.
Perhaps mine is meant to be a way to try to instill serenity and positivity and perhaps, also in a superstitious way, to exorcise fears for the future.
Well now I say goodbye and as always I thank you for the time you dedicated to me; thanks also to Galen for the opportunity he offers us and for the commitment he dedicates to this community and never like this time I would say... See you next week!
The texts are translated with simultaneous translators; for the avoidance of doubt I have decided that they will all be translated exclusively with Google Translate.Of course, English is not my first language but I try, forgive any mistakes and imperfections of Translate.
