I hate myself when I'm angry

in #hive-1688692 years ago

HELLO HIVE

Welcome to my blog i wish each and everyone the best today. Today i will be talking about what i want to let go of myself which is anger as i get angry easily. Getting angry is just a step away to get into danger and yes no body is perfect, we all have flaws I'm a good person which I'm always trying to be better day by day but then this anger issues is something i really want to get ride off 😢.

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I remember back then if my little sister did something wrong for me i will end up beating her sometimes i shout at her which at the end of the day i regret doing. Althou i don't keep malice and i love saying what on my mind. Anytime I'm with my peers and if have issues i don't like the fact that i get angry easily, sometimes i just want to leg go of the issues but then if I'm not saying it out i don't think i will get myself.

There was a day last year i regretted my anger so much, here is what happened i and my best friend went to a store to get some goods before going he already delayed me which I'm already trying to control that , so we got to the store we are going and i bought a new phone on that day he also bought somethings he needed, after i had payed for the phone i got from the store , my friend ask me to give it to him so he can check it , of course he's my best friend so i handed the phone to him but to cut the long story short the phone fell out of his hand, a new phone i meant and the phone face got cracked because of the hard ground and the way the phone landed on the floor , honestly i was so mad 😡 on that day the store that i had to slap my best friend because i so much angry 😡. Wow i never believe i can slap my best friend because of a phone althou i saved so much for the phone but then i should not have slap my friend because of ordinary phone 📱. I regretted day day so very much that i could not forgive myself 😢. Althou i later begged my best friend and he forget and forgive me about my stupid actions . But slapping my best friend in a public store because i was angry is something i hate my self doing.

Althou i am changing small small about this anger issues but then i really want to be able to control my anger because as i said earlier anger is a step away from danger. I wish i can control this bad 😞 habit of mine. I know growing up and learning day by day i will definitely handle this so called anger and of course it has reduced than before but i want to work more and more on it.

Well I've said alot about myself that i really want to let go of, but haven't been able to let go and with my explanation we should know the effects it has had on me, i want to let it go but sometimes some people pissed you off and some people enjoy it so i could not help than to get mad at them anytime i was pissed off. With the view things i wrote i hope I'm able to answer the first question asked by @galenkp the weekend engagement, you can get the details HERE

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You're very brave to share about the things you struggle with so honestly 👏

If I may make some suggestions?

Not advice... only suggestions and you're welcome to use them or not :)

  1. Please don't beat yourself up! Don't be so hard on yourself for the things you struggle with because we all have traits we are working on and trying to change. And just the fact that you can see them and want to improve your skills is pretty amazing! 🔥

  2. When you feel that rage rise... try and take a bit of time out. Try not to react immediately and to do some deep belly breathing (breath in slowly all the way to the very bottom of your lungs and into your whole belly and breath out very slowly when you exhale only through your nose)

This will slow your reaction down enormously if you do this about ten times.

Then tell whoever you need some time out because you're feeling angry and you want to process it and choose how to respond to the situation after you've been able to think about it clearly. 👍

  1. If you start to practice any kind of meditation (there are tons of free meditation tutorials on youtube so try a few and find one that you like to begin with - guided meditations of around 5-10 minutes are a good way to start) and you make sure that you practice this every morning as a part of your morning routine...

you are going to find that your mind and reactions slow down within around 5 days.

And if you carry on practicing this for some months you're going to be surprised you every got by without it ;)

Well done for being accountable and focusing on your personal growth at such a young age!!!

You have give me the best solution i must say , i just go on YouTube to check more about what you have said and it's absolutely Truth, i know if i follow everything you have said so far i will be able to control my anger.. honestly you are a God sent smile 😊 thanks for stopping by and leaving a beautiful comment in my blog ☺️ i really do appreciate it.

Aw... you're wonderful 😊

You have a great heart! Be kind to yourself! I'm certain this will just flow through you naturally into your interactions.

Because look how awesome you are when you're you 🌸

I wish I a having people like you around me, I am having a lot to learn from you, you are more wonderful

:)

I think people have a lot to learn from you as well, my friend!

And if you keep on keeping on and achieve your goals you're going to be able to show other people how to be more at peace as well 😊

But you're gonna have to learn not to hate yourself, okay?