Off the top of my head, I would tell you that receiving/ having a lot of money excites me. And that’s because unlike what is often said, money can actually solve all of my problems.
But this #weekend-engagement prompt from @galenkp actually got me thinking, surely there most be more to what excites me than money. And it was hard to think about anything cause I can’t remember when last I was actually excited about something (aside money of course).
I’ve actually felt good about this weekend. Not overjoyed, but I’m quite happy even though I have a very solid reason to be sad cause I spent all the money I had. I’m quite happy because I’ve been able to clear out all the things(almost all) in my to-do list.
And it’s just the basic things. I went out to the salon( something I’ve been postponing for so long), I cleaned my room and arranged all my clothes, I made food for myself and actually ate twice yesterday.
And today I cooked a whole meal. Suddenly, everything looks so organized in my life and I feel so good about that. I don’t think anyone could ruin this good mood I’m in. So this has brought me to the realization that doing things for myself, checking off things on my to do list excites me.
Giving people around me a reason to laugh is also something that I find joy in. Fortunately, I get to experience a little bit of that everyday when I’m at work.
On weekends, I can go the whole day without saying a single word except for my friend that calls to checkup. But it makes me wonder if I’m being true to myself. Why would I make people think I’m a very funny person but at home, they think I don’t talk.
Oh I almost forgot this one, I got this email last Monday and I was sooo happy. Like I could not believe it. I got accepted into something that I thought I didn’t stand a chance. Sometimes when I apply for stuff, it’s not really because I want it, but I just want to enjoy the feeling of getting in. Makes me feel like I’m God’s favorite.
I think all these just comes down to one main thing; achieving milestones I’ve set for myself. It’s like when I’m trying to put a certain idea I have into code and I finally do it. I find myself doing a little dance out of nowhere.
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