There are 3 more hours to go before the show is down. How far are you from the person you were? Has it been days and days, that you didn't reflect on yourself? What have you truly become? Is this the same Anna we knew or is she someone else in Anna's body?
It was 3 more hours to go until the show began, she is not reacting nor being suspicious of my actions. Does she not predict what is to happen or is she sulked for the enormous burden that she carries on her shoulders? I am wary of her miseries but little am I able to toss them off.
I try my best every now and then, but little do we all have the power to change one's fate. What is in her fate and what is in mine, I am unaware but I still want to be with her. People always comment and they love commenting, many come by and shove their comments on your reality. Similarly, she met just too many of them and now she is dragged with their flow.
I want to bring a halt to it. I want her to stop swaying away. I want her to be happy and content in her world while becoming the best version of herself just the way she likes and wants to be. She considers not having a choice, she considers not having a WILL to move on, while I think differently.
It was 3 more hours to go until according to the rumors, the show was about to begin. It was not a show to me, it was not mockery, it was a hope for things to turn beautiful. I don't want her to struggle, I don't her to be in the middle of the chaos and pain that she suffers, but it is true that I cannot guarantee that. But, it is not true that I am unable to save her from falling.
We humans may not be powerful but we have some sort of power, do we not? Life is not as pathetic as we think it to be. My words do not hold the power to save her but my actions might have that power she needs but she is unaware of it all. I am not 100% confident in what I am about to do but I can feel it, this decision of mine will change her life and mine too.
We all are selfish in a way in or out. It is just a matter of time unless that becomes known to everyone, or ourselves. She is drowning and this might be another way to drown her is what others keep commenting on me, but I see hope and happiness, and I want to try it anyways.
In a blink of an eye, 3 more hours turned 3 more minutes to 3 more seconds and I confessed.
The clock struck 12, the bells were ringing, when the girl of reality stood against me. I looked into her eyes and sat kneeling while softly holding on to her hands. It was so soft a hold that she could slide away mistakenly but she stood there struck as the clock. The bells were in a flow.
Happy birthday my lady. How may I confess more than what my postures hold? How may I deliver words that may not be steadily taken by you? Let me only share the bit that you are most comfortable hearing my lady. I want to stay by your side my whole life and allow me to complete it for myself, for you, and, for us.
After saying so I pulled out the flowers that waited for her all along the 3 hours. People stood and walked away realizing nothing devastating, according to them, took place. But what was yet to come they weren't aware. She was puzzled but she understood that it was my charm, I would never put her at an awkward scene but she never anticipated what came next.
We sat at our table away from the eyes. The eyes left the scene and engrossed in their lives. I pulled out the chair from behind her and let her be seated. She was blushing so innocently while making gestures of shaking her head and whispered while I bent, do not be so humble and naive that I might fall for you.
Just the words my heart wasn't prepared to hear. I moved away and got her plate and food. It was my restaurant, a small one to say, one that can be vacant whenever I desire it to be. The loss and gain, were always mine alone.
I got the food and lastly, did I get the spoon for my lady and took my seat looking down at my plate. From the corner of my eyes, I could see her hands did take the spoon but were holding it for too long. Did I make an abrupt decision, should I have taken much more time? I was unaware of what was waiting for me.
Our life changed, now she is as healthy as she was ever before, Those lavender flowers that I got for her became her favorite. Now she helps me run the restaurant, her dishes rules over the town, something which we were not aware of. A little smile here and there occupied our busy schedules. Whatever we had to face, we both handled it together. Every once in a while, we did make some special time for each other, even if we quarreled and had bad days, we still stuck with each other. We didn't have to, we just chose to.
