The church was looking very beautiful with several flowers and fairy lights. Chairs were arranged carefully in rows and were filled with a thousand guests. The altar was decorated so beautifully and there stood the priest with a large smile on his face. Next to the priest was a tall and attractive man with a v-shaped face and killer smile that could melt the hearts of girls in this hall, including mine.
If you haven't guessed, well a marriage is currently going on and if you haven't noticed, it's mine so you're welcome to the most radiant wedding of the year that would soon be the talk of the town. Everything was perfect. The chairs, tables, decorations, guests, bridal train, the groom and even the bride!. Well, I was trying to be perfect. I had an amazing wedding dress on me that I felt was too beautiful to be worn, the perfect makeup which was done by the best makeup artist in the country, and I didn't want to ruin all that with my weak smile. I was trying so hard to keep a hundred watt smile on my face, but people who knew me so well, knew the smile wasn't reaching my eyes.
I was so confused and inside me,I felt I shouldn't be going on with this marriage. Most of my friends say it's just wedding jitters but I knew better than to believe that. I knew what I was going into and I knew it wasn't going to be of favour to me.
I and Jacob met at a club and we clicked so well. It was like love at first sight. But then, we met again at a family occasion and that was when I found out his dad and mine were best friends. Jacob, also finding out about this, wasn't too happy and then his dad decided it would be nice for us to get to know each other. That just made things worse because I came to learn that Jacob hated his father and would do everything to go against him. I really appreciated the fact that he tried to be at least loyal in our two years of courtship but our relationship was without love.
Jacob always made me feel special and took my hopes up only for him to break them. He would always make me feel as if I was forcing a conversation between us. I lived my peaceful and simple life before he came along and even loved him despite the fact it was an arranged marriage but since he has been in my life, I always had to do a double task; losing my mind on the inside, and smiling on the outside.
I wasn't happy and only a few people noticed this. I was no longer the free spirited and happy living soul. I had lost myself completely and while staring at myself in the mirror today, I saw I had lost the beautiful spark in my eyes, all for love.
I began walking down the aisle with my dad and I've never been so scared all my life. Was I ready for the change that was to come with everything?Was I ready to be in a loveless marriage where I was the only one pumping all the love?Would I want to have children live in this kind of environment and grow up not believing in love?.
My dress was so sparkly and fancy. It was like a dress out of a fairytale, and I could see jealous stares being thrown my way. I looked up at the man I was to marry and sent him a smile. My dad handed me over to Jacob and the priest continued the ceremony. I wasn't really paying attention to what was said because my mind was racing so fast.
"I do" immediately those words came out of Jacob's mouth, my heart started beating so rapidly. It was then my turn and just when I wanted to say I do,
"BAM!" It happened. The cake fell which had our names, Jacob and Annabelle fell down and just as the cake fell, so did I. I immediately burst into tears and everyone was staring at me weirdly. It's actually sad the cake had to be ruined but people stared at me as if I was overreacting. I was only crying because I have had enough and I just had to break down.
"What is wrong Annabelle, people are watching, can you get up please?" Jacob bent down to talk to me.
I looked at him and just had to let out everything I had been holding in.
" I don't think I can go through with this Jacob"
"What do you mean? Don't tell me you want to call things off now because that will only mean humiliation and I can't take it. Think of the one thousand guests in this church before you do anything stupid Annabelle".
Reputation, that was the only thing Jacob cared about. But I was fed up with having to stay in a relationship without love. I choose my happiness.
"You don't love me and that's something you've shown me from the start of our relationship. I can't go through with this because loving you hurts. It hurts in so many unimaginable ways."
I immediately ran out of the church. While running, I heard the gasps of people and murmuring but I ignored it all. I deserve to be happy and I would find that happiness.
