Am I an artist? Process- 1/4 [ENG-PTBR]

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Hello there!

I'll start this one with something that probably isn't news for anyone here: these last few years have been crazy!
Pandemic, life changing and for help, my country had a president who did not help the population in its most difficult moment
Luck for me, I have the bests on my side and they helped me to put my feelings into art. In a period of 8 months they made me seen how artist I'm and encouraged me to do my first exposition!

The exposition contains photos and poetry that I made during my life. It was a long and hard process, a true challange for myself but now I'm ready to share with the world 💜

WELCOME TO "SEMENTE" (seed in pt/br)

("Semente" means seed)

We are an universe constantly changing. One pile of histories, past and with an eternity of futures to build.


I didn't feel like I was there anymore. That so special place didn't make sense to me anymore, as if I was bigger than any space in that house. It was then that I decided to travel to find myself again, to understand what had happened and, most importantly, to find my place in the world. When I decide to go back to my inner self and retrieve memories from a distant past, compared to my age, I realize that the stories are already flawed. The memorable days are actually scenes from compilations of different days, and when they come back to my mind, they last only seconds.
The memories come together in small fractions. I wonder how many things that I consider epic nowadays I will forget with the passing of time, but I think it is better to leave this aside because the future is already the next seconds from now. I came to the balcony to breathe, write and forget, but these questions made me anxious. I'm going back to the room, to smoke another cigarette and go to sleep. The memories are not clear with my eyes open, maybe in my dreams they will reveal themselves. I'll come back here to tell you about it later.

When I started thinking about the project, I figured it would be easier if I started with the photos but It was a mistake.
As many photographers, I have a lot of content never posted or seen like they deserved, so this took me days till decide how to finally start?.
as the days went by I became anxious and couldn't decide anything, or move myself to do anything, my mind was already too cloudy.

One day, one of my friends said to me "why don't you just go on and paint something? Just to refresh your mind!
And them I started. This video shows you the creative process during the paiting.


This was the first video that I made to register all the process.


In the end of the day, I made 5 paints and put some poetry on it. My exhibition was an art explosion mixing paint, photo and text.


This other video was made on the assembly day, so you can see my friends and, of course, me working! I was cutting out some pictures because I wanted to used them in a very special collage

If I can assure you of one thing, it is that the creation process was chaotic, just like the good things in life.

We have to learn to dance with chaos.