Some years ago, I was in love with a girl who later became my first girlfriend, the love was so strong that I care less about the existence of others, and I was lucky because the feeling was mutual...
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We would chat all night and she would sleep in the process, we talked about the future and how I wanted my kids to have her eyes, we had something unique and beautiful going on between us and with the way it was going, I never would have thought or imagine it would end the way it did.
The beautiful memories lasted for 4 months then the pains began, it started with her ignoring me which hurt so bad, I tried to figure out the reason and it was only one thing that came to mind, but I was not at fault, I just happened to be someone who would not defend his loved ones when they are wrong.
I tried to fix things but the more I tried to, the more we grew apart, I was hurting but I couldn't beg without knowing my offense, that is if I even did anything wrong, I have my ego to protect so I hurt in silence, my heart bleed because the only person that I want no longer value me...
It was worse that we had to be in the same place for hours, we were close yet so distant, I kept trying my best to make her talk but it seemed she had already given up on the love between us... All love was not lost yet because I was still very interested in her, Only if she could tell me my mistake and I could ask for her forgiveness but my love had no reason or excuse to give me... I have no choice but to let her be....I watch her from afar with sadness written all over me and I wish I could leave the damn place as fast as possible cos the only reason why I chose to still remain there just called it off with me.
The last month in the place was one of the worst moments of my life, only those who have experienced heartbreak would be able to relate but the time to depart finally clocked and I was eased a bit that I would leave the environment but still sad that I am going to lose the love of my life cos there will be no more communications.
I left! I heard from people alcohol helps to ease the pain, I tried it, and felt good for the time I was intoxicated but the moment I became sober, the pain doubled and I realized Alcohol couldn't heal me so I stopped taking it, I had to live with the pain...
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One day I was bored and decided to check her social media, her Facebook was logged in on my phone when the fire of love was burning in our hearts. Still, I never checked until that day and that was where the truth was revealed, she was already cheating on me with someone I know and they even discussed me... All the time she started ignoring me, it was because of the other person. I could not explain the way I felt that day, sadness mixed with anger and any other negative feelings you can think of.
It was a bad day but something good came out of it, she cheated on me and that is one offense I can never forgive no matter how I love someone, my heart still yearns for her but my spirit doesn't anymore, so it was a battle between both and the spirit won, I still felt her absence for months but I never reached out again.
So If you ask me why people fall out of love, I would say it is due to lack of commitment, not willing to be devoted to one person all your whole life... Communications also plays an important part, there is no relationship without communication...
Two people can't be together if only one is in love.
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