I have a few people I never get tired of reading their posts, and I have a bad habit of sticking with their content rather than exploring other content on the chain; unfortunately, my curation has also narrowed down to them. One of these creators is burlarj. (I avoided tagging him because I did not want to bother him).
This post is not about the quality of a Hive post; rather, it is about how my consumption habits have evolved over the last 9 months. I prefer to read realistic material because I have been dealt a lot of blows in life, and I occasionally read things based on how I am feeling.
When I am excited, I like to read about the crypto market, and when I want to unwind, I just watch videos, but I also like to read about the reality of things. For example, I have a cable dish at home, and I enjoy watching reality shows because they are about real life. People's struggles, victories, pains, challenges, and everything. So the only time I read science fiction is to relieve stress and balance my perceptions of what is real and what is not.
I am subscribed to several subreddit pages, and they mostly provide realistic information about my health complications and condition, as well as my prognosis and people who have similar conditions. These are educational materials that I consume on a daily basis, and while some of them can be depressing, I now understand that we need more than just information to be happy in life.
There are things we probably do not want to know or understand; the idea of being sad for knowing certain things is something many people, including myself, avoid, but I have learned that knowledge does not have to align with our happiness or sadness for us to seek it; its purpose is to educate, inform, and ultimately help in ways we can not predict.
For what it is worth, I have been very sad a lot lately, and it is because I have chosen to seek the knowledge that I should have accumulated over time. I have read more in the last nine months than I have in a long time, and it is because I have realized that there is a lot I probably should have known but did not and still do not know, and knowing too much has caused me a lot of panic and anxiety.
However, knowledge remains knowledge, and this is the reality.
It is not like I am a mad scientist or anything; for what it is worth, I used to be a guy who did not care about or let anything bother him. However, it was simply my way of deflecting from the painful realities of my life. Sure, it provided comfort, but if I hadn't, a lot of things would not have seemed out of place.
I am a different person now, and I have chosen to be responsible for things I was not before, and being responsible has made me realize that I have been living irresponsibly for a long time, which brings me a lot of sadness and regret. Consider it this way. A toddler, for example, cannot learn things intended for adults because they require gradual exposure and assimilation to develop.
There are various things that we must learn and accept, and it may take years, if not decades, to do so, and being forced to accept them all at once can be unbearable.
Reality can be perplexing, and the concept of unfairness is one that we find difficult to accept. Accepting what will happen to us, no matter how good we think we are, is difficult. Many people take years to understand it, and for me, it took the loss of everything to do so. However, my losses and misfortunes have not caused me to give up on the possibility of anything good; the only difference is that I can now see clearly.
Of course, my sense of logic has not altered my understanding of God.
Nevertheless, it's always a challenge; convincing people that you know God and still you have a bad life.
There are many things for which God is not responsible, and that is what we usually do: blame God for common problems that we could have avoided if we had known or done better. For example, when I tell people about my faith in God, they say things like "there is a physical benefit to knowing God".
There are, but our reasoning does not work in black and white. The Bible implies in many books and chapters that man will never truly understand God with our current knowledge, and this is primarily what we apply to the concept of knowing God, which is completely misplaced. This is getting too long, and I probably still have a lot to say. If you learned anything useful from this rant, it means I will continue in another post.
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