One thing I have always thought of doing was going outside Lagos state, while I have always liked the thought of living in a different state and doing it alone, it's not far fetched because I have at one point in my life craved for peace of mind and being alone to sort out my head .It's not just about changing location, it's about finding myself in solitude, away from the familiar chaos that had become my daily life. I have always believed that sometimes one needs to step away from everything one knows to truly understand who they are and what they want.
This thing I have never gotten till date , well many factors have come to hinder this thought of me being alone, I think after voicing out my intentions one time, I got a lot of disapproval from all sides and it made me feel as if I was planning on doing the wrong thing
Then I said to them , this stuff is about my peace of mind, I started questioning their thoughts and feelings about me. I asked many questions. Why, Is it not worthy of me to want this for myself if I was at this state of my life? I was left confused and shattered, Why was my simple desire for peace and self-discovery met with such resistance? The questions kept coming: Was I being unreasonable? But something changed within me during those moments of doubt. Instead of letting their fears dim my resolve, I found myself growing more determined. I started to understand that their reactions were more about their own anxieties than my capabilities. They weren't seeing my vision, they were seeing their own fears reflected in my plans. That realization was liberating. It helped me separate their concerns from my aspirations, then after a while I didn't care what anyone said and started making plans to do this
Well I still have the plans for it , just that a different blockage came up, I want this to be different and actually living it is also different.
To be more frank , after reasoning it and thinking about it, the only issue weighting me is Finance ,The reality of moving to a new state, starting fresh, and maintaining myself until I find stable footing requires more than just courage and determination. It needs careful financial planning and a substantial safety net. if I do get the money to actually do this I think I would take it and take the move , because this way it would be easier , but before that alot if things have to be put in place.In today's economy, saving enough while meeting current obligations feels like trying to fill a bucket with a hole in it. Each time I make progress, unexpected expenses arise, forcing me to start over. But unlike the emotional barriers that once seemed insurmountable, this challenge feels different.
I've started approaching this plan more strategically now. Instead of letting the financial challenges discourage me, I am using this time to prepare in other ways. I want to develop new skills that could lead to better job opportunities. I want to build professional networks in my target state through social media and online communities.Each step, though small, brings me closer to my plans
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