Looking for patterns and connections in the mundane… I think today it might be fun to take notes of some of these observations over the past few days.
I’ve had a pretty full schedule since….the end of September. I haven’t really had a chance to sit and meditate on all the little things happening around me, to seek the meaning in that mundane.
- A friend came to visit and brought up old memories of who I was when I met her. I’ve become a battle scarred warrior compared to the whiney boy I was ten years ago. I’ve lost a lot but not nearly as much as I have gained.
-It brings up the feeling that I need a healing from healing if that makes sense. I’ve been almost forced to grow and adapt at a rate that has tired me out. On the other hand, I havent really had a chocie. I imagine things will slow down for now on that front as I may have an opportunity to share what I’ve learned.
I still feel as if im on a completey different schedule from everyone, but our schedules overlap more and more.
I notice spurts of relevence where what I am doing resonates with others deeply and then doesn’t connect at all soon after, only to repeat this cycle. Patience is key, that and learning to listen for a nature flow. I will try to keep my head down and continue the work.
the staff at a resteraunt in town has started calling me by name. Around the time I’ve been getting closer with some of the staff at my facorite cafe/bar. Both are a bit outside my regular circle and could potentially help me to briege my work and my play. They are right in the middle.
my partner is getting out of her shell a bit, saying positive things about herself that she would mever dare say before, and shes getting more involved in my practice sessions. We’ve talked about buying her an electric piano but our room is tiny so we are trying to rearrange it first.
-its important for me to reserve my enthusiasm. I often catch onto ideas and inspiration before others and become impatient waiting for them to catch up. Not everyone prioritizes the same things as me.
writing this blog has becoming incredibly important to me again. There were times when I forced it and other times where I strategized and thought about payout, all without sacrifcing authenticity, but I find it much more comfortable to continue treating this place as a diary for self discovery, even it occasionally I write something that is meant to share eith others. I can pretend no one is watching with regards to the content, and then just adjust the wording to be a bit more palatable for a reader because I know there are some of those.
My eagerness has been getting out of control again. Im reminded of my “bipolar” past. Those ups and downs of lethargy and being supercharged. I still feel those hoghs and lows although they arent as disruptive and emotional as they used to be.
learning to better manage these moods by certain stimuli at certain times. Listening to my own music or a favorite new song before bed is a horrible idea. Reading inspirational stories before bed as well. I should wake myself up to these things instead, but not when i have a full schedule.
there are more tourists coming to my neighborhood, and tokyo in general. Its a sign of the times. Japan is being forced to become more and more like southeast Asia in its economic strategy due to the weakness of the Japanese yen. Its a very proud country though and so this creates an awkward dynamic.
the yen is continuing its downward spiral, about slower than many other currencies. This could have all kinds of social consequences, not only economic. Last week an old man went on a shooting spree and injured a bunch of people. Not the kind of thing you think of when you think of Japan. These incidents may increase.
As incidents and povery increase in Japan, it will likely lead the docile police and docile populace to both become less docile. I imagine people taking to the streets a lot more and speaking in ways that were unimaginable in such a conformist society. Yestersay i saw a aspiring local politician on twitter who looked like the exact opposite of a poltiican, a guy in his 30’s who looked like a hostess club doorman, rhe or a guy who tries to pull you into a brothel. He was shouting about how politicians have run the country into the ground and calling for clearing the house. Ive never seen this kind of person make this kind of speech with this kind of reaction.
As is usually the case, when society is leaning harder and harder in one direction, I tend to lean in the other direction. This is not reactionary, in fact, it’s an attempt to counter the reactionary. I’m well aware of how people tend to overdo it and would like to help balance that out in whatever way I can. I find I am like this with almost any issue, once something becomes common sense I have to question it, because often no one else will.
This natural tendency may have led to many of my hardships growing up. It’s easy to get yourself in trouble with this kind of attitude but I am now much better at knowing when speaking may help something and when speaking will only bring me trouble.
From a simple observation in my environment. I can discover something about myself or something about the world. It’s important not to draw too many conclusions too fast, but when many arrows point to the same place, there is uaully something there.
There are all kinda of other observations I could make but I feel that some of them require more of my undivided attention so I will take a break for now. Lets see what I comenup with by tomorrow.
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