In 2016 I surrended my life to Christ and I received His. I got distracted after few months and I received back my life. But in 2017, I rededicated my life back to Him that owns it and the journey started, continued and endless.
So, my fellowship with the Holy Spirit deepens thanks to Pastors Benny Hinn's book titled "Good Morning Holy Spirit" which really foster my fellowship with him. I guess you know the feeling of starting out in a relationship and how every moment becomes special, so it is with the Holy Spirit. I love Him because His loving, I yearn to spend long time in His presence but I never knew He also longs to spend more time with me more than I wanted.
He will make me smile and cry at the same time and mind you, those tears are tears of love, joy that you can ever imagine and most of the time I will be in my room from morning till night. I do not want to see anyone because I am with Him that makes the world important to me but on the other hand, I was barely in a month relationship with my ex I thought I would marry. I had been in a relationship with her before I rededicated my life to Christ.
Odunayo is fun to be with person, she has a kind heart, she's brilliant; infact, she's more brilliant than I was when I was in school, she could sing which makes me to love her the more and on top of it, she could cook. Oh yes!! I was in love. We started our love journey. She helped me with my studies during some of my exams because we thought our love journey would be an endless one and we were planning on how we will settle down even while we were in school.
I believe you are aware that when you allow the Holy Spirit to brood on you, it gets to a point where he makes you become like Him and as His name implies "Holy". There is no one that comes around Him that will not be washed to the point of holiness and that was the exact thing He did to me.
So, a day came where the Holy Spirit asked me a question which I felt it is not a hard one and since I am in love with Him, I can answer freely, tenderly and sincerely as I could because lieing to Him is a sin.
FLASHBACK
Few weeks back, I listened to one of Pastor Benny Hinn's teachings where he shared a story about how he was in a relationship and the Holy Spirit asked him to let go of the relationship because of Him (Holy Spirit) which he reluctantly obliged to and in turn, his spiritual life skyrocketed and things began to happen in his life. Note: the person was not the reason things were not happening. It is just a point you get to with the Holy Spirit where your loyalty is tested. You can be tested with anything.
BACK TO PRESENT...
Then He (Holy Spirit) asked me if I could give Him anything and I was happy to answer with the sincerity of my heart; Yes!!!. To me, I don't have anything serious in my life to give out and it is a privilege for the Holy Spirit to be asking me if I could give Him something. Little did I know that I had two important people (my family & girlfriend) in my life but my mind never went there. So, He asked me again and I answered like little children will answer because of the purity in their hearts.
In the end, He said "can you give her to me?" So I wondered who He was referring to, truth be told I instantly knew whom He was talking about and my world seems to like crashing down on me because I never thought in my wildest dream such a request could come from Him. I thought my physical relationship life does not concerns Him but I never knew for everyone that want to live by Him will have to submit every part of his/her life to Him. He becomes the decider of every decision. He brought back the story Pastor Benny Hinn shared to my remembrance. Ha!!! I didn't see this coming, would you please let this cup of request pass over me? Would you please asked for something else? How will I cope? Is this not too much of a request? These and many more were the questions running in my mind.
Oh, I didn't tell you the meaning of that question; it means "can you break up with her". At the end, I reluctantly agreed and I cried for days before I took the bold step to carry out the instruction.
FUTURE (NOW)...
Odunayo is happily married with a child but here I am not married but did I regret obeying the instruction? NO!!! It was one of the best decisions of my life because I had an awesome experience since then till date. It is a decision I will take over and over and over and over again.
