How Did I Get Here
I came to know about this platform last year from the one and only @notacinephile and he has been pushing me since. After months of his trying I still couldn't manage to create an account here as you all should know that I'm a super lazy person. Last week he came to my city to visit me and helped me create an account. So finally I'm here at hive.blog
Who Am I
I don't know what should I tell you guys and where to start. I'm not good at writing. Actually I'm not good at anything. I'm an introvert, a pessimist and a socially inept paranoid insomniac. I was born in such a poor family that even my parents had to leave me to my grandma's to raise me. I know they had to face difficult struggles but I couldn't endure. The pain that I feel inside is gonna be there forever. How can you burn out the pain if you allow the tears to stay? I couldn't. I felt like crying but nothing came out.
Most of the days I don't feel like myself, I feel sad and isolated, get lost into thoughts and feel so numb imagining the worst. I've been depressed. I've felt suicidal. Everything is going bad in this world, feel like life is full of chaos. The future is so dark. Deep inside I'm very fuckin' dead.
What I Like
Films__
I have always been a movie freak. I started watching films since I was in primary school. Back then only option was BTV's weekly shows as I was living in a small village far from the modern world. After getting admitted to a college I left home and got the chance to watch more. At first I was onto hindi films mostly. Slowly I started to know about world cinema and I got kinda addicted to this world. People like me always need something to distract us from this complex real world.
I like films of all genres. But my favorite genre is drama, specially romantic and philosophical drama. My most favorite director is Wong Kar-wai. I'm obsessed with his films, he is like a magician to me. Other favorites are Krzysztof Kieslowski, Abbas Kiarostami, Stanley Kubrick, Andrei Tarkovsky, Ingmar Bergman, Alfred Hitchcock, Terrence Malick, Satyajit Ray, Charlie Chaplin, Martin Scorsese, David Fincher, Akira Kurosawa, Denis Villeneuve, Majid Majidi and many more.
Music__
Like films music is another distraction which has no rules and when hits we feel no pain. So listening to music is on my daily routine for a long time. I don't know much about music genres. I just keep listening to them randomly. My favorite musicians are Ray LaMontagne, Gregory Alan Isakov, The Paper Kites, Radiohead, David Bowie, Vancouver Sleep Clinic, Pink Floyd, The 1975, Elvis Presley, Frank Sinatra, Linkin Park, The Lumineers, Iron & Wine, Prateek Kuhad, Birdy, Dreamgirl, Damien rice, Ghostly Kisses, The Cranberries, Scorpions, The Script, Kodaline, Current Joys, Massive Attack, Queen, Cocteau Twins, King Crimson and many more.
Books__
I'm not much onto books. I read only a few books. My favorite books are The Stranger by Albert Camus, The Soldier in the Attic by Akhteruzzaman Elias, All the Sherlock Holmes novels and stories by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, In Blissful Hell by Humayun Ahmed, Srikanta by Sarat Chandra Chattopadhyay, Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami etc.
Football__
I'm a big fan of Argentina. I don't know when it all started but I can tell you that it started at a very early age. As far as I recall I started loving Argentina after listening to the heroics of Maradona from one of my uncles.
I'm a big fan of FC Barcelona too. I started to like FC Barcelona after reading an article about the club on newspaper. I was in ninth grade. Back then there was no way for me to watch club football. Whatever everyday after school I used to go to the local library to read newspaper, specially the sports section and I got to know about Puyol, Sorin, Saviola, Riquelme, Ronaldinho etc. I liked Ronaldinho the most before Messi. Ronaldinho was the superstar. Later when I first saw him plying on TV I was astonished! How good a player he was!
What I Regret
The only thing I regret in life is not having guts to ran away from home when I was a teen. I thought about it a lot but couldn't do it. As time passes by responsibilities kept increasing as I'm the elder son. So I'm trapped in here.
Plans For Hive.Blog
Actually I have no plan. I don't know much about this platform yet. I'll have to spend some time here to figure it out. Wish me luck so that I can survive here :)
