How Music Made Me Feel Safe And Sound

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At age 5, I went through what no child should have gone through; I was sexually abused.

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To me, I didn't think much about it at the time, he was my uncle and he wouldn't have hurt me, right?

Growing up in a culture where sex wasn't talked about, this happened again and again, and by age 10, I had been sexually abused by more than three men without anyone realizing it.

This made me fall into depression in my teenage years, I wasn't only depressed but I was also very suicidal; I didn't see a reason to live and I wanted to end it.

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At this point, I found music, and I wouldn't lie here and say that it was some magical pill that changed everything, but it made it all suck less, at least at intervals.

I remember the last time I tried to commit suicide, I had attempted, rethought, and cried myself out but, after calming down, I decided to scroll through YouTube and I found this song; safe and sound by Taylor Swift.

I had always been a Taylor Swift fan and loved her music, but hearing safe and sound at that point felt like a warm hug which I incredibly needed.

It was crazy how just a simple song by a girl who I adored, singing about me being safe and sound could change everything.

I continued listening to this song every time I felt sad and every time it made me feel more safe, more sound.

it's been years since I listened to this song, but hearing it again made me feel like I was a child again; scared, alone, and vulnerable, in need of someone to make me feel safe.

While singing, I felt like I was singing to my inner child and I didn't realize how much she needed that and how healing it could be to sing a song that saved her years ago.

Music has always been a safe space for me and whether I am 13, praying for a sign to live, 16, crying every day, or 23, experiencing the best phase in my life, I will always feel safe when I listen to a song.

Like @mipiano said, what is the point of music if it doesn't impact on your listeners.

I know a lot of people are going through one thing or the other right now, so I hope listening to my rendition of this song makes you feel a little bit safe and sound.



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sad to hear you have to go through all that 😖. but good you found a way to get back 😘.

Thank you so much, things happen I guess but I am glad I had sure to pull through.

yep, you were strong that's why you pulled through 👍 keep going.

Thank you so much, means a lot to me.

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I cant prove @battleaxe is the one directly doing the V2K and RNM. Doing it requires more than one person at the least. It cant be done alone. She cant prove she is not one of the ones doing V2K because she cant and could care less. I guarantee she knows this is going around and still wont prove it because she cant. Many of us here can prove what they have been doing to survive the past 5 years. What does she live off of? It definitely isnt in public view here.

I was drugged in my home covertly, it ended badly. They have been trying to kill me using RNM with applied V2K mental games while revealing as many accessories to the crime as they can. I bet nobody does anything at all. Ask @battleaxe to prove it. I bet she wont. Pretty serious accusations to just blow off and leave the crypto community hanging in fear of this danger.

They want me to believe the V2K and RNM in me is being broadcast from her location. And what the fuck is "HOMELAND SECURITY" doing about this shit? I think stumbling over their own dicks maybe? Just like they did and are doing with the Havana Syndrome. They should start by looking at the communications between the top witnesses of Hive and the connection to @fyrstikken groups. Google his fucking name and see where his other interests lie around at least once maybe? The connections between @fyrstikken groups and all the exchanges built for Hive? Bet that would reveal some crazy ball less nutty shit. Homeland security should start preparing for their own incarcerations seeing how sloppy this was done. Patriot act my ass. Think we are really fools? Bad position your not getting out of. Dont be last to blow the whistle. Who will protect you?

People in and around @fyrstikkens groups are reckless and should have shown the proper media what they had before taking me hostage for 5 long torturing years and counting. That is a long time to wait for someone to die.

What would you say while having a gun pointed at your head from an undisclosed location? Have people find it? My hands are tied while they play like children with a gun to my head. Its a terrorist act on American soil while some yawn and say its not real or Im a mental case. Many know its real. This is an ignored detrimental to humanity domestic threat. Ask informed soldiers in the American military what their oath is and why nothing is being done. Nobody has I guess. Maybe someone told ill informed soldiers they cant protect America from military leaders in control that have ill intent. How do we protect locked up soldiers prevented from telling the truth from being treated as criminals? Not to mention civilians we let our leaders treat the same way. https://ecency.com/fyrstikken/@fairandbalanced/i-am-the-only-motherfucker-on-the-internet-pointing-to-a-direct-source-for-voice-to-skull-electronic-terrorism-terrorism

There are no words I could use to express how much I am sorry you had to go through all of that 😔

Thank you so much, it means a lot.

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this song is such a special one for me too... i was just singing it the other day

I'm so glad that you found solace in music. It has a way to heal the soul that mere words simply can't

sending love to you sweet girl

Music truly heals, also, I am excited that you like Taylor swift or at least her music.

Thank you so much for the love ❤️

The role of music in our society can not be overemphasized. It's good to know music helps you to lift your soul. You have a beautiful voice as well.

Thank you so much for listening, Indeed music is very important to our society.

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You do love this singing thing.
I m so happy you re doing what you really should be doing on hive.. 😜😜

I am so glad I have hive to do that, probably wouldn't have outside this space.

This is so emotional; the writing and the singing.

You are so strong.

Thank you so much, I try to be.

Growing up in a culture where sex wasn't talked about.

Who knows how many young children have had to go through this😪
This actually brought memories to me because I went through such also but it is well.

Thanks for sharing and I enjoyed listening to the music from you.

I was having a conversation with some people and they all spoke about how most girls they knew had been molested or raped, it's crazy

I am so sorry you also had to go through that.

Thank you for watching.

My sweet sweet Khaleesii. You are such a strong and courageous young woman. I have so much admiration and love for you. Your light shines so brightly. Always continue to look ahead and up. Sharing your message and your music can only help you to thrive and who knows the lives you may touch that need to hear your voice too. 💗 !ALIVE !LUV !hivebits
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This made me feel so special, I needed it so much, especially at this point.

Thank you so much, I truly appreciate it.

I hope sharing myself gets to touch even one person.

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This your voice... Like i should just be paying you to come and be singing me to sleep. Lol

I'm sorry you had to experience all that. But you got stronger and it's a miracle. Music heals that i agree very much.

See hype oh, how abeg? Just leave me oh.

It's sad that I got to experience it but I survived and that is all that matters.

I try my best to prevent it from happening to other kids, it's a bit crazy though.

Anyways, thank you for watching babes.

Thanks for sharing your experience with us!
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I am so sorry that you went through all that, I am also glad that you are here and strong.

Keep being you.

Thank you so much, I appreciate it babes.

You are welcome.

So sad the read what you had to go through that early in your life. That said, also great to read that music was a kinda relief for you and helped you to stay on this planet. Liked your singing here 🙇

Thank you so much for reading and your words.

Oh wow! You have gone through a lot and what would I say than to feel sorry, even though it's in the past now. Thank God for the lady you are today and I believe you will continue to be stronger. I do enjoy your voice while singing especially when I check your update on my status. You are indeed a strong lady today and thanks to that music that came at the right time for you. I came via @dreemport

Thank you so much for listening, I am glad you enjoyed my singing.

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It's super frustrating to go through that, I'm sure @khaleesii, like screaming in a soundproof room, with no one to hear it. I hate the thought that anyone has to go through that in life, it just totally destroys one's life until they get to the point that they refuse to submit to the negative emotion of the experiences. I hope that you have let go of the past as much as you possibly can, even though I know that you'll never completely forget about it.
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Thank you so much, I guess I am trying to let it go a day at a time which is very important.

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The fact that you choose to use my TAG for this post...just goes to show what a truly kind soul you are. Not something a lot wish to share. Yet doing so, helps to bring to light things that (sadly) happen in the world. You realize that you are a beacon of light, I hope. Music truly is the Universal Language and for many (including myself) something that is the same as a Mother or Father's hug... or memory or moment, that helps us to feel safe.

Thank you for sharing this beautiful post with us... I will only focus on and highlight the positive energy that you are sharing and spreading. And know that you are loved, and cared for... by many...

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I really didn't plan to end the day with tears but thank you.

I lived life for a long while not speaking about what had happened and in turn, living in pain that I shouldn't have because it wasn't my fault.

These days I try to talk about it because that brings awareness and awareness helps.

Thank you so much for your kind words, it totally means the world to me.

@khaleesii

Well... you know. There are many types of tears. Or rather; we are human, and some of us (like me, as I was raised by women) are a bit more emotional than others. (Yes... I cried watching 'The Notebook')... but hopefully, these were tears of happiness and understanding. Not because of hurt, or negativity. Have a wonderful rest of your day, my friend.

!LUV

They were happy tears, your words helped me a lot.

Thank you, also I understand being emotional, I am too.


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