Today, while I was seating down at my long couch and watching my best movie, games of throne once a gain. Then i got up to pick up my phone since i was getting bored being alone went on tiktok, i bumped into this Classic sweet enticing Song, i kept on repeating and repeating this same song for sometimes then i was forced to download this song to be playing.
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After some moment my mom walked in and saw i was playing a singke song on repeat then she asked me, “is everything Ok My boy”, listening to her sweet voice gave me hope and brought a smile to my face even though my thoughts were lost at that moment, “i am fine Mom”, i told her with a smile on my face then she walked up to her bedroom.
My thoughts were getting deeper, what made my mood to be down even while i was watching my best movie is what you regard as “Love”, there is this angel in human form i have always been with for long now, sometimes looking at everything i feel i am not too good or not too pure to be with this angel like she deserves more than what i am able to give, could this be the feelings of love or depression. To love someone might be easy but to impress the person by giving in your best can never be enough. Where there is true love there can never be limitations but the feeling of not being enough to encourage the person or make the person happy.
I am a deep lover, i easily fall in love this is why i find it or run away from relationships because i know my heart have been broken several times, but i am a man like what everyone says “keep moving”, my dad would tell me never to hold unto the past and always be forward no matter what. This song gave me a lot of goosebumps and while i was reflecting for long, i slept off, i feel like i had a dream but couldn’t remember what it really was but it was about love and even after i woke up, i still played this song, so emotional,i and my girlfriend we never had quarrel, or fight but i feel like there is more to do for my lady to be happy in my heart that I can’t do now.
Later i called her and explained how i felt and i got the best words i was expecting, she said “even though you don’t buy me the world i chose you because my heart wanta you and i want you”, i felt hope once again after being lost in taylor swift sweet voice and lyrics. Then i explained to her all i want is for us to travel the world, see the beauty of nature and be happy together, with smiles and dances to our best musics, she smiled and blushed. My thoughts might sound too young but it’s truely how i felt that moment. We both joked after with memories of past and everything we had together.