In January of this year, I found a new spot to record but on that day, it didn't go as intended, and I had to record at home instead, I forgot about this location for a while, up until today, when I knew it was time for giving it another try.
It's a spot a the top of a valley, with a hill going down abruptly and showing the mountains, I love these types of sceneries, it's probably where I would like to record a movie or a music video if I could.
There is something monumental about nature, more than a monument itself. Whether it's a vast ocean, a desert, or an imposing mountain or just a tree, I am always in awe, impressed by the godly design that mother earth created.
I was a little bit concerned by the cars, tractors and trucks passing by, there is a road a few dozen meters from where I am shooting, the first take was a little tense, the second one on the money.
It took me at least a month to learn the lyrics, and I still manage to make a mistake or two haha.
I waited for a moment of calm, the song is 3 minutes, I just need no car to drive by for this moment, fingers crossed.
The bell of the church nearby, starts ringing...
It's time to set up, and be swift. The more I am standing under the sun, the more I am sweating, and the harder it's going to get 😁!
Let's talk about the song:
The version that I know of, is the one from Harold Melvin & The Blue Notes, though you probably are more familiar with the Simply Red's version.
The rhythm is a 6/8, a waltz, one of my favorite pattern to play, some of the best love songs have it.
The lyrics are simple, yet really mature, universally understood.
If you don't know me by now
You will never never never know me (oh)
All the things that we've been through
You should understand me like I understand you
Now baby I know the difference between right and wrong
I ain't gonna do nothing to upset our happy home
Oh don't get so excited when I come home a little late at night
'Cause we only act like children when we argue fuss and fight
If you don't know me by now (if you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (you'll never, never know me)
If you don't know me by now(if you don't, if you don't know me baby)
You will never never never know me(No you won't)
We've all got our own funny moods
I've got mine, woman you've got yours too
Just trust in me like I trust in you
As long as we've been together it should be so easy to do
Just get yourself together or we might as well say goodbye
What good is a love affair when you can't see eye to eye, oh
If you don't know me by now (if you don't, if you don't know me baby)
You will never never never know me (hey hey, hey hey, hey hey)
If you don't know me by now (you will never never never know me)
You will never never never know me (oh)
I've done a little bit of work in post prod, to get the colors popping out, and adding a bit of texture with messing with the contrast.
Here is the difference:
One thing that was becoming an habit before my "Hivatus" (Hive Hiatus), is that I was becoming incredibly frustrated with recording a video weekly, between learning the song and making something interesting with the background became almost a mundane task, and I missed out on other things because I was so focused on posting.
So I have to make sure I don't tap into that nervous energy, the one when everything has to be perfect, and that I don't forget to be still working on my album in parallel, also finding gigs.
I've always struggled with intensity, I tend to just wholeheartedly invest myself in a project, and it takes all my attention and time.
So keeping things balanced is going to be interesting, I also try not to have a posting schedule like I use to have, because it makes things becoming a job, and takes the fun out of it.
That's actually the most important point, I know that every time the upvotes aren't there, you can't help but let the doubt creep in, "Is it good enough?", then you start hating what you just did.
But one big upvote (or a succession of small ones), can change the entire perspective on a subject. This is the opium, and how every dealers is getting people hooked on their drugs, by giving you one good hit, then you'll always try to reproduce the "lightning in the bottle", but it's impossible, because it's all random.
You might spend the next 3 weeks trying to find some success, for finally rage quitting again, because at the end of the day, it's a game.
It also changes the relation that you have to others, because you aren't focused on what they're trying to say, but on how much they just made, then the same doubting voice comes back, and say "why theeeeeem!!!", and this is stupid, because then you run in circle chasing your own tail.
I want to avoid that state of mind at all cost.
I've got tons of respect for those that manage to consistently writing daily, and not being phased by the ups and downs of the game.
It profoundly affects me, to the point that my wife just asked me to stop being so damn focused on hive for a while, and it helped. My world opened, my field of view became greater, I managed to remember who I was, and it was a whole bunch of things bottled up, that Hive prevented me to explore, because "I have to write my post for tomorrow". It almost took 2 months to revert back to a "normal life".
Even if I talk shit, I am very proud of what we are doing here, even if it's on a small scale, it's completely new and still very "avant-guarde", maybe I should just stop looking at the numbers, at the trending page, and just enjoy this place for what it is.
A really unique experimental laboratory.
So my rule of thumb, is that I will only post if I have something interesting to say, something worth becoming eternal on the blockchain, otherwise there is no point of doing it.
But yeah, here is 2 posts one day after the other!
