I’m beginning to notice the trend in my life, I have this irrational believes that no one can accept me for who I am that I am unlovable that I must place artificial limits on myself depending on who I interact with.. How can someone who loves singing and poetry also be in sports and fitness or how can one who desire to be a theatre actor be into something different, don’t give attention to what the very few people think, you’ll definitely attract real people in your life…
There isn’t much congruence in my life but maybe that is for a reason. I’m of a fundamental believer that this universe is moving by expansion yet and all I do is constrain to my shadow believes, this has affected my well being and every other thing attached to me..
But you know what I can be never stop doing is being myself with no limitation because whenever I embrace what’s inside of me I find my peace, I manifest love and abundance..
Recently I’ve felt so homeless, it’s like me looking for what to do even though what I should do is clearly drawing me closer to it.. I should really respond back to my hopes and dreams by filling it with the best possible fit.. I compare myself to other people and this only intensifies the issue, trying to be ourselves is the solution to all..
“So how do I avoid my life, my dreams, my passion sinking just to be in deep thoughts with no cure?”
The more I write and do what I love is to fulfill my fullest expression, my mind moves on its own in other to avoid exhaustion.. I allow my doubts, my depression and my anger sink within my gifts, and if that doesn’t help me through nothing else will…
So singing has become my solace, I sing to get me going, I sing to find peace, I sing to bring back good memories, I sing to be happy…
My ideal love for what I do should never stop and even though several things come into play, my feelings get surprised by the things I see and the things that happen all around.. my love for writing, singing and making Merry should never stop.
Take out time to make yourself happy and keep loving who you are in this world. There are several creatives and several gifts in us, let it flow and also create a relationship with it… that’s what love is…
This was a short write up, it could be a poem cuz I had the intention to take you along with me into my deepest thoughts… I love you all and stay beautiful… ❤️❤️“The goal is to be Happier”
April 5th, 2022
