Not A Public Space

in #hive-1948482 months ago

A few years ago, I was shy to accept the fact that I am more of an introvert than an extrovert. I only feel like an extrovert when I am with people that I share close relationships with. Whenever I say I do not like public spaces people would always look at me as boring and weird. Slowly, I got to accept the fact that this is who I am and that is what makes me.

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In 2022, after I left my ex-relationship, I tried making myself a different person. I would always want to go clubbing, I would want to visit the latest restaurant, partying with my cousin and his friends who at that point felt like they were my friends as well. During that period, I would always feel exhausted and I would just want to go home because I wasn’t enjoying myself no matter how hard I tried. Most times, I couldn’t even voice out because I didn’t want to look like a boring person.

But I could tell how exhausted I felt after every outing. Sometimes I even felt like this wasn’t my kind of thing but maybe I needed that change so I thought. It took me months before I was finally able to cancel on them most times I was invited out for parties, clubbing, and the rest. I made it look like I had other plans, well my other plans were to stay home reading a new book I just got or maybe stay home see a movie, or sleep.

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When I look at my friend cycle, I realize I do not have many friends, I honestly can’t call that anti-social. I just feel like I have the right amount of friends for my peace and my simple kind of life. I could say I have 2 to 4 close friends, with whom I have created a strong bond. Amongst my friends, I have a very close one with whom I share lots of similar personalities.

She is more outspoken but then if there is one thing about her that I love is that she derives joy in the simplest things. Whenever we spend time together, either an outing which is always once in a while since we have different priorities, or even a stay at home, we tend to bond well. Our relationship has built me and I do not feel emotionally drained whenever we hang out or spend time together at home. I am always certain that when she calls me for a hangout it is always the two of us.

I have other friends who also call me for a hangout but most times I prefer to just stay home and do something else because I know it would be draining to me, or there would be a crowd and then I would always look for an excuse to come back home.

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A few times I have gone out with my Dad to several events and occasions hosted by one of his friends or work colleagues, I just sit at a place and listen to their conversations and spend hours doing nothing because that’s not my kind of social gathering. I do not like public spaces. I have sometimes attended occasions with massive crowds, but I try to make sure it is very important to me and it isn’t going to drain me.

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So naturally I am someone with a little social life and small friends circle and I love it so much because to me, I avoid anything that would drain me and I derive pleasure in simple activities, and also simple but deep conversations.

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I was thinking out loud yesterday that if ever stories of my personal life gets out to the public, I know who to hold, that's how tight my circle is. The fewer friends the safer one gets.

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You are so right, less friends, less drama

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I relate so much to this. Especially to the part about trying to make yourself into someone you're not. It doesn't work and I'm glad you came out of that phase.
Good on you for embracing who you really are 🤗

It was really difficult, thank you so much☺️

There is more to social lifestyle than just partying, it has a touch of building connections and it's the most interesting part for me.

Sometimes, there is always the need to mingle but when you are not the type, it only amounts to stress rather than fun.

You are right, there is more to social life than just partying.

Thanks for stopping by☺️

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Thank you

I see myself in all you have written here because I can relate to them all. I find public spaces boring after a while, I enjoy my corner space more than being outside. I am an introvert but an extrovert when I am around my close friends and relatives. When it comes to partying, you can't find me there except I am forced and when I finally go, I don't spend much time before I noticed that it's draining me as I would want to be back at home.

I am that person that you will take out and I will start asking “When are we going home”

We are twinning right now😂😂

Yes oo. If it's getting longer, I will disturb you 😄

Ohhh this person sounds like someone I will like because I also derive joy in the very little things as a person☺️

That’s lovely☺️

Thanks for stopping by girl☺️

You’re welcome

You have made the right choice about having a chosen number of circle of friends. Having much friends is outdated, they can bring problem Where there's none.

It's better to have 1 friend that understands you than having 5 of them that doesn't care.

#dreemerforlife

You are right, thanks for stopping by

Most public spaces can be very suffocating, that's why it's best to stay in places that one feels comfortable with which is mostly our homes.

I also have few people in my life I would call "friend" and they have added positively into my life.

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Thank you so much for stopping by