How do people find themselves?
How do people get goals and ambitions?
How do people know their future ambitions?
How do they feel fulfilled?
I've tried to push these questions out of my mind for the longest time and just live in the moment but the moment has refused to live in me.
I keep asking myself how life works outside my head, the people living their dreams, how on earth did they get there? Or no one lives their dreams anymore?
I've never had a definite goal aside being happy and making everyone around me happy too, each day I see people, my age mates and those younger or older than me talk about their dreams, ambitions, how they've always known what they'll be when they grow up but me?
I've never known what I want to do, I just learn every skill I like and end up doing nothing with it.
I want to live and be happy that the only thing I know.
Sometimes I pretend all is okay but it doesn't take long before I fall back to my thoughts.
Sometimes I feel I need help, other times just rest but no matter the amount of rest I get, I'm restless, I know I'm not depressed, I'm just tired and also tired of being tired. I've taken breaks from everything trying to find myself but it seems I'm beyond finding, might as well wonder till I arrive at the great beyond.
Is it just me? Or are there other people who haven't found themselves yet?
