Hello friends and family, welcome to my recovery update post. I have been doing great mentally, with no bouts of depression, but I do still get overwhelmed by stress occasionally. A lot has gone on since my last post. A ton of people got kicked out of my sober living house, I got a new job, then quit it after a few shifts, and I won a 200 Hive Power delegation, thanks to a raffle drawing on Hive Power Up Day in The Terminal Discord server.
Let's start with the chaos that ensued after I left the sober living house overnight, to help my mom because she hurt her ankle, foot, and toes.
They had to drug test me as per the rules at the sober house. No problem right? Wrong... I tested positive for Marijuana over 30 days since the last time I smoked! Well, long story short, I got very upset, my mom helped me with 50$ to send it out to the lab, to check the levels. Needless to say, my levels were super low, so it wasn't a problem in the long run.
Now, the other people didn't have such an easy time. One guy tested positive for marijuana but tested clean originally when he came in. GOODBYE, they said and threw him out the door to fend for himself. The next guy tested positive for Fentanyl, which is a pretty big deal. Somehow he managed to get back in 3 days later which I do not understand, but oh well. He is a pretty cool guy who ended up taking a few Vicodin for his unbearable tooth pain, which ended up being fake and laced with Fentanyl (watch out boys and girls this is a common occurrence). The last victim was the least suspect of them all... And he didn't even get drug tested originally! IT WAS THE HOUSE MANAGER!!!!
The house manager was having a terrible day, I recall hearing him on the phone arguing with a coworker/manager or someone of the sort, about being drunk at work. Turns out he got fired, for what I assume was drinking on the job, but again it's just an assumption. For the next couple of days, he was gone all day long and showed up very late at night.
One night he started texting me gibberish and playing music at the loudest decibel on his huge stereo system, keeping us all awake long into the night. He started texting in our house's group chat, which included the owner and saying the craziest stuff in a jumble of gibberish and crazy mis-spelling. Needless to say, the owner ended up grilling him asking what he did that night, they drug tested him and kicked him out of the house.
I believe he is going to be moving into another house affiliated with the same sober living owner, and he will definitely no longer be holding a house-manager position. This situation messed me up, as he had 4 years clean and decided to screw everything up over the loss of a job, even though he is a qualified master mechanic with the ability to get a job anywhere, at any time.
I ended up quitting my job at the pizza place right before the drunken foolery at the house. My boss had just me and her working the work-load of 4-5 people. She had her uncle doing deliveries, and when he was in the store, he did next to no work.
I worked 4 hours without even a second to catch my breath, as we constantly were 4-5 orders behind. I expressed my irritation, and she lashed out, claiming I was disrespecting her. She got the worst attitude I have ever seen from a boss in my life.
I tried to keep my cool and be the bigger person and I said, "My anxiety is already a huge issue, and trying to do the work of 4-5 people is just too much, sorry for wasting your time." what I wanted to say was I was going to start drinking again if I continued this job, but they did not even know I was an addict. She fell silent and just said, "yep" proceeding to look very frustrated at me for wasting her time. Well, I guess you can't please everyone.
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I have been spending the night sending applications in on Indeed(a job-hunting website). I have a few health concerns, regarding possible Diabetes, and low testosterone, but we will see the validity of these concerns when I see my doctor on Thursday. I have been staying strong in my sobriety and that is all that matters. Also, I won the 200HP Delegation from the Discord server The Terminal(@theterminal), in a raffle done on Hive Power-Up Day, Thanks so much for all the help you guys :).
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