This is an incredibly brave and beautiful piece of writing. Whatever you are going through, went through... I do hope that your strength is returning. I personally find writing very cathartic. When we write about our feelings, our emotions, our innermost thoughts, it brings clarity. I recently recovered from covid and after I was back at the day job albeit working from home, I still went a few days without writing which turned into a few more and it was up to 8 days (without blinking) before a friend on Hive threatened to stop talking to me on discord if I didn't write. It was the biggest kick up the proverbial I needed. I was finding it so difficult to find the time, and when I did, my focus and creative spark were awol. But after the shove...erm nudge lol... I persevered... and then wrote 4 posts in 4 days. Sometimes (most times) all we need is a little love and support thrown our way when we need it most. I did love your post and it resonated a lot with me. Sending you a big hug @beautifulwreck. !ALIVE !LUV