First Sunday of the month, I wasn't able to go my father's grave. Aside from it's located at Manilla, I have no money for the transportation.
My sister in-law light the candles for their deceased loved ones. @katsuki was able to take photos of it. Then yesterday at our house while washing our laundry, I light up a small candle, I also played a music of Dance with my Father I said to my father, grandfather that I missed them so much 🥺. Please guide us always, then all of sudden I had ghost bumps in my shoulder and arms. Like my father hug me so tight. I couldn't believe that he'll be the one to visit me. I got a teary eyes, but life must go on. Even the dead knows how much the alive suffers. I also said I'm really sorry for not visiting them and I know they understand my situation.
While our relative brought us some food for their daughters birthday. It was a cute cupcake, with spaghetti and toy because Ria was to excited I wasn't able to took pictures of it. I see how envy Ria is, because she hadn't have cake in her birthday.
While I missed being a kid seeing these kiddos. All they want is to play and be happy. Mariel may regret being a young mom but atleast she went back to school to continue her studies. It's hard having a lot of regrets in life, it's a kind of consequence that you never want to feel. But when I see my kids I remind myself to be strong for them. Sometimes we will realize that we are finding ways to be happy. Everyday seems to be a test and if we fail will definitely loss. But every failure comes a lesson, so never give up in life there's always a hope.
