Dear me, your story makes me feel lucky, family-wise!!

My problems were more along the lines of @cmplxty's meme:

Family that push us away when we're are down do more damage than anything else. They make us feel unworthy, unsure, unloved. They rob us of our connection to self. Of course, they were robbed themselves to be able to act this way. So many of them present as caring and kind, but when it comes to family, their inner beasts take over.

You had an awful lot of losses ten years ago. Is this an anniversary of your mother's death, which sounds like it must have been awful?

Cool pile of rocks anyway. That's that.