It was harder to give up all those desires.
It was harder to make myself believe that it would never happen.
It was harder to convince myself that it shouldn't happen.
Harder was to keep quiet and keep everything I felt.
But, what a deception. I hadn't really forgotten you.
But, what a deception. I really didn't stop wanting to hug you.
But, what a deception. I really didn't stop wanting to say I love you.
But, what a cheat. I never really gave up all those desires.
Now that you come in search of those desires, we can no longer be.
Now that you come in search of those desires, there are more obstacles than before.
Now that you come in search of those desires, there are more compelling reasons for it not to happen.
I still don't understand the reasons of destiny.
I still don't understand, if it was cowardly not to fight.
I still don't understand, if at that moment I should have fought.
I still don't understand why just now.
The only thing I can understand is that I don't want to fight for what I didn't fight for before.
The only thing I can understand is that it's not the same as before.
The only thing I can understand is that something inside has broken again.
Although I still don't understand why it repeats itself again.
I don't want to fight,
I don't want to have to fight for something that maybe doesn't correspond.
Maybe I'm a coward, for hiding again.
Maybe I'm a coward, for once again walking away.
Maybe I'm a coward, for not taking the risk.
Maybe I'm a coward, for falling in love with illusions.
Maybe I'm a coward, because today I'm giving up...
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