Hello everybody and to this wonderful community @asean.hive. It's been a while how are you everyone? I hope you're all fine and doing well. I'm losing my focus these past few days because of some issue that was not meant for me. And I thought going to the day care center will be an enjoying thing, meeting some new friends. But as the days, weeks, months gone by it went worse. They are sometimes talking at other people, and because I'm not used to that I don't know what to say. It went to the point that also other people are making stories at me and I don't care at all. Even I suffered their lies 😞 the worst my husband choose them over me 😭💔.
We're not also talking to each other since he left, about four days. But his communicating through his kids, when Ria is giving me the phone I resist in talking at him. Being alone in the water world with no neighbors, I thought it will peace peace enough but it wasn't. But life must go on. I know my prayers will be enough for them.
I just told myself God also deal with his pain alone, sacrificing his self for the sins of others. But he didn't asked or complained he just continue what is needed to be done.
It was a beautiful view while walking home. There are no trycycle so me, Ria and my daughter walked home. It was also not hot at that time compared to now. I snapped the view of our place and inhale a fresh air. Exhale the worries and let life do it's part.
At home Ris's favorite toy, she always love to build Lego. These building blocks helped the kids nourish and developed their brains. Her elder brother has a lot of collection Lego collection. I was amazed by their patients, those little tiny parts they need to built it according to the instruction.
Sometimes the hardest part of growing is knowing all, while our kids are innocent and still need to grow and learned. We overthink sometimes and stress kills us. But what I did is to lived for others such as my kids. Because if not for them I could end my life 💔.
Thank you so much for reading
Much Love, @usagigallardo015
