This is my post for #freewriters 2381 prompt Her achievement hosted by @mariannewest
I look back at this little girl and think about what her achievement in this world was, and it would have to be her kids, they are the ones who she loves the most, the ones she is most proud of, they are the ones who she has shed the most tears, they are the ones who have given her the most sleepless nights, but still, they are her greatest achievement.
One thing she can not achieve is getting surgery on her hand. The surgeon wants me to stop taking the blood thinners 5 days before my surgery but the doctor who prescribed them is the one who has to tell him it is ok for me to stop them. A neurologist put me on them but I stopped seeing him and when my prescription ran out I asked my primary doctor if she would refill them, and she did. Now the neurologist is no longer practicing in my area so I can not go back to him and I am afraid a new one will want to run all of those tests over again.
I saw my primary doctor today and she told me no she will not give her consent to stop them, she said I have a high chance of having a stroke because of whatever is going on with my neck and the falling, and the EKG I had showing the high T-waves. She said I will have to see a neurologist and a cardiologist. I saw both of these doctors a few years ago and after many, many tests they could not find anything wrong so I stopped seeing them.
I called the hand surgeon's office and told them what my primary said and they told me they have no choice but to cancel the surgery until after I see the other doctors and get a clearance from them to stop the blood thinners. I also told them what my primary said, she told me that by them wanting her to say for me to stop taking it they want her to make their job easier. I do not know what she meant by that and the surgeon's office did not comment back anything on it.
I have come to the conclusion that maybe I am not supposed to have this surgery, when all of this started I felt as if it was a sign to not have it and now I feel that way more than anything else. I kept thinking about what happened to Joan Rivers, she went in for a routine surgery and never woke. That thought was heavy on my mind so maybe this is God's way of telling me not to do it. I have lived with and learned to work with back pain, I can do it with hand pain. I mean what did people do 200 years ago, they lived with it.
I WILL GET BACK ON THE RIVER, I JUST HAVE TO TOUGHEN UP!!!
photos are mine