I say to myself lately, that i cant just have what i want. As if im a kid in a candy store. Nope, it just doesnt work that way.
its not meant to be that way....
Power Rangers Toys
When i was a kid, i remember wanting power rangers toys from the store. Whether or not it was affordable, it wasn't my concern. All i knew was that they were such cool toys, and i wanted to collect them.
This an actual Megazord in box, that i purchased from ebay just a few years back. I loved these toys so much that i had to buy from ebay to get some of that nostalgia, and in hopes that the value may increase by time another 10 years comes by.
whats the point here...
Reality
Well, reality is hitting me, as im getting older and as my priorities change. I've been absorbing a lot of information regarding dating and relationships, or attraction. The psychology behind it. How things have changed over the past 50 years with technology. With the culture changing impact from social media...
while i write about it on social media lol
But things have definitely changed...and i feel like its tough to be human. Tough to be on either side of the equation, and yes theres a lot in between. Im mostly talking about men and women because thats what fancies me, and not trying to get political or too much into the in betweens, but in fact the psychology of all still applies.
I examine myself and wonder why im still a single man, and theres many reasons. Its who i was when growing up. My father died when i was young, like 2 years old, long story. I always had my step dad though, but i feel like life would've been different if had my real dad around. Theres something about being young and absorbing peoples behaviors and personality traits and characteristics.
Then theres the awkwardness of being a young man (and girl too), in school and learning what lifes about. I feel like i always had some level of social awareness, was always able to make friends, but i was never the absolute stud. More of a nerd, but somewhere in the middle I'd say. If i embraced more interactions when young, i would've put in those reps and learned more, at a quicker pace.
Fast forward to my 20s, working at McDonalds and found a girlfriend that lasted about 2 years and then broke up. I slowed down and partied a little too much and didnt face my fears of going up to girls and making conversation. I found a girlfriend again when i was 30 and just recently started dabbling with a few new ones.
So getting reps in and learning is big.
And i end this post by just saying that i wish i can just point at the most beautiful women and say, lemme have you....but that'd be too easy.
Its not my candy store, and we'll have to work for what we really want....
Rock on!
