Grateful is the most powerful weapon in life.
Life is about art. The art of accepting, and living life as best we can. We try, and just have to not give up. Leave the rest to the owner of life itself (Almighty God).
Even when we are in the lowest situation, there is always a way out for those of us who don't give up. Isn't our job just to survive, and not give up by committing suicide? And, it's certainly not easy. Just like art, even though our blood is blessed with talent for it, we must continue to learn to be able to produce our best work. The art of survival.
I always learn to say grateful to my life. And learn not to say the saddest moments. Because, in this life, moments of sadness are only short compared to moments of beauty in life. It's just that, when people are sad, they tend to think they are the saddest. So, gratitude is the most powerful weapon.
2023, half a year of our marriage. I was pregnant at that time. But that happiness gave way to sadness. Almost 3 months, the fetus in my womb can no longer hear its heartbeat. And, I was bleeding. I lost my fetus.
This is the IV mark on my left hand after several days of being hospitalized due to a miscarriage. To be honest, it was the first time in my life that I was on an IV drip and hospitalized.
Instead of lamenting what happened, I recovered from the sad weeks. I look fine from the outside. Although inside me, what was happening was that I was a complete mess. I didn't want to show my sadness to anyone at that time. In my opinion, that would only make things worse. Only with my husband do I share everything.
I learned a lesson from what happened to me. The miscarriage I experienced actually taught me many things. I became more attentive to my own body. I pay attention to my sleep time.
I no longer eat packaged snacks from the market. I make homemade products. Also, I prefer to drink green juice with no added sugar. I no longer drink instant beverage product from market.
Also, I ended up exercising regularly, lifting weights and doing aerobics.
Also, there is something more important. I love myself more. All this time I worked too hard and let everything feel heavy. After that lowest moment, I actually realized that my husband was always there, and how valuable I was (before this maybe I didn't realize that I was really loved).
There may be times when we feel like we are nothing. We feel like light cotton that is simply blown away by the wind. But then again, it's just a sensitive feeling. Not really the situation.
From the pain I experienced, after losing my mother, and also losing my fetus, I realized that this was the time God had given me to be able to look inside myself again.
The constant pain only becomes meaningless if I give up. Then, I am grateful for the pain which makes me more mindful now.
Pain is just a test to lead us to a more beautiful place. And, when we arrive in the future, we will thank ourselves that we did not give up. If we give up, we will never get there. ❤️
Thank you, 2023. Every year always has different joys and sorrows. But this year, I can say that this is a great year to teach me to be better. Because being stagnant in life is a loss. So, make as much progress as we can, even if only in small ways. Small things, big impact.
Thank you, Hivers. For all your support who always take the time to read my blog. Stay blessed! ❤️❤️❤️
Pssst, this is the first time I share my wedding photos with you guys! I use 2 traditional wedding dresses (in white and navy color); and 2 modern wedding dresses (in green and pink color).
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Anggrek Lestari
Anggrek Lestari is an Indonesian fiction writer who has published two major books. Now She is a full-time content creator. She has a goal to share life, poem, and food content that makes others happy and can get inspiration.
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