Bland

b0s in #hive-196233 • 4 months ago

Is it possible to be tired of everything? Ok, that's not how I wanted that to sound. Rather the question should be, Is it okay for everything to seem boring and bland?

I have been praying, begging even for months for some free time to start working on the mountain of goals I have set for myself. And then now I finally have that free time and it's just three days in and I am unmotivated. I refuse to believe it is burnout cause I haven't done anywhere near enough to be burnt out.

Not even sure how today was, but for some reason everything felt a bit bland. I decided to deviate from my plans (the majority) and just relax and do the things that I enjoy doing. But it all just felt tiring, watched a movie, went for a walk, played some games, even talking to friends didn't go as planned. Spent the entire day feeling like I was wasting time while not actually being able to do the things I thought I should be doing. Not sure how to explain it, but I guess it is what it is.

My head is still a bit of a mess so I decided to come to my usual outlets, writing here and music. Even that doesn't feel like it is working. Or maybe it is and I am just not patient enough to let it work, would be so typical of me at this point with how impulsive I can be. I'm guessing sleep would be the best thing to do right now but even with a headache I am not feeling it.

The only good thing about days like this is that they pass and may probably not be memorable (I doubt that about today though, but it is a possibility). I have been through days like this countless times and I hate it every time, but I always get through it. There's no hack to it (or at least I am not aware of it yet). It is all about hanging on and hoping that tomorrow is a lot better. I hope tomorrow is a lot better.

THANKS FOR READING

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4 months ago in #hive-196233 by b0s

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fokusnow 4 months ago

Am sure you will eventually feel fine and discover some motivation to achieve your goals. Personally, I do feel like that once in a while. I have a lot written in my diary - so many goals. I work heartily towards achieving them. But once in a while, I do feel that nothing seems to make sense. But over time, i am able to overcome that feeling. Hoping you overcome yours too

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b0s 4 months ago

Yeah, funny enough the next day was good so yeah you're right. These days happen, and we just have to overcome.

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depressedfuckup 4 months ago

I refuse to believe it is burnout cause I haven't done anywhere near enough to be burnt out.

I wouldn’t rule burnout out entirely because you feel that you haven’t done enough with your free time to be feeling like that yet. It’s probably burn out from all the other tasks you’ve had to deal with up until this point where you have some free time.

What I normally do on days like this is allow myself be completely useless for one day, and by the end of the day, my guilt for misusing an entire day becomes enough motivation to push me to be super productive for the coming days, maybe even weeks. This way, you sacrifice as a martyr for you productive in the subsequent days, as opposed to helplessly lazying about multiple days in a row. Might sound counterintuitive cos you’ll feel like it’ll just make you comfortable being lazy, but you might be surprised. It might not work for you, but it could be worth a shot. So take this well deserved break and be totally useless, my guy:)

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