He Would Have Been 18 ..
Pepper passed away in the wee hours of September morn. He was 14 1/2 years old and suffering from kidney failure. Why we didn't notice some of the signs earlier, one will never know. Luckily he suffered only a short period of time and passed away in our home with us lying with him on the bedroom floor. One of the worst nights of our lives and one I hope we never have to go through again.
Pepper was truly a beautiful dog, full of life, full of curiosity, and always keeping us on our toes. He was an awesome dog. He was a great dog all around! We couldn't of asked for a better companion for those 14 1/2 years. And spent day after day with him, year after year. She as well could not ask for a better big brother than Pepper.
I often read things about one day when they are sure they'll be able to clone a Pet. I thought this was a strange thing but I can actually see why people would do it. I would not. I would not want to clone pepper and ruin the memory of his life by producing another dog just like him. That would not honor him in any way shape or form in my opinion. I would rather choose our next companion and what we get is what we get. Discovering their individual uniqueness, (what makes them, them) is the cool part.
Before I even got the notification on my cell phone, I knew it was his birthday. In the early years, I didn't remember his birthday. Yes I am guilty of that. Some days it would come and go and a week later we would remember. As he got older it became more of a milestone event and each one that came around was a blessing. I don't remember it being this hard last year when his birthday rolled around. Maybe now that Molly is gone it's emotionally more difficult.
I'm alone in the house this afternoon, making me alone with my thoughts. I walked over to Pepper's ashes, just a short distance from Molly's, and wished him a happy birthday. "Happy Birthday little buddy boy." And of course the tears came. It was sort of unexpected but probably exactly what I needed. I don't think you ever get over the loss of a loved one. Every day we find a little bit more closure, with every beautiful memory that fills our heads.
I refuse to dwell on the thoughts of those moments before he passed. They are too hard to wrap my head around even today after so many years have past. Instead I'm thinking about all of those birthdays, years ago, that I forgot about then remembered. It's sort of makes me laugh and makes me feel good at the same time. We spoiled him rotten not only because it was his birthday but also because we remembered a couple days late. That's life!
I remembered today.. Pepper. Wish you were here so we could spoil you more. We love you and we miss you, and your sister Molly, something so terribly. We can't wait to see you again one day when our time has come. But until then remember we are thinking about you on your special day.. and always.
Happy Birthday Pepper!
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Almost Forgot Something ..
The new silver purchase! I picked up a few more Silver Peace Dollars. Nothing to write home about.. Just a few heavily circulated ones. I picked them up for just over spot value. Nice little bit to add to the stack!
