I woke up thinking about what happened before I slept
Tears soaked my pillow because I felt like a failure
My headache throbbed and my heart raced rapidly, breaking UsainBolt’s speed record
I lamented, ‘How can life be like this?’
With that thought in my head, I closed my swollen eyes
I woke up with my eyes more swollen than ibefore
I probably cried in my dreams
But
The sleep was therapeutic
When I woke up,
I felt energized and full of life to face life head on, chest up, feet down and eyes set.
I started by analyzing my life with spotlights on my strengths, dim lights on my weaknesses
I realized how goal oriented I can be
I started working towards my goal
It came with the rewards and I crushed them all
I saved numerous lives because I saved mine, and it came with tons of rewards too
Every day, I crushed my to-do list
Seconds ran into minutes and minutes into hours and lightyears
Worked my way to the top
Bought my favorite car, built my ideal kingdom
I felt happy
And with a joyous heart, I opened my spectacle into the reality of life
And alas!
I was in the meta verse
Reality set in
My candy was crushed
And my asphalt car? Gone into thin air, puff!!!
My kingdom crushed right before my eyes
And when I checked the time in reality
Gone!!
I picked up my phone to call my friends who I’d not spoken within ages while building my dreams
And to my surprise, they were all made
They had every single success I had in my meta verse
I asked about a friend of mine, and I heard he had travelled to Dubai
The same one I visited countlessly in my world
I had rewards, they had rewards too
I bought a car, they did too
I saved lives by crushing targets in my games, they did too by getting my rich
It was at that point it dawned on me the tangibility of life
I always believed in the psychological but never came to terms that there won’t be psychology without the physicality
And here comes the greatest lesson
It’s not either this or that but both
You can’t choose the physicality without psychology, it’s both
The body and the mind
And I realized all I lived was a lie
A lie on the screen
The tangibility is what matters in the ends
Money is psychology, but what you buy with it makes it tangible
and in the tangibility
comes the psychological reactions like comfort, happiness, and sleep
But I realized it still points back to not choosing the two
I looked at the design of the games I played
and I realized they simulated all of life’s reality into their tech
and instead of choosing the tangibility
I chose the psychological response I got
I ought to have talked with people more
But the followers on my Instagram account gave me the fulfillment
DMs outweigh real conversations
Digital scrolling is better than physical strolling
In the end, NFTs never mattered, it was only the real art that did
Laying thoughts on Whitney Houston’s “Our hearts will go on”
But are you sure the hearts will go on without the physical memories ?
There’s still something sure: as long as we are alive and see each other, the hugs will go on
I’m convinced of the hugs, as our hearts make contacts
Rather than wait till the hearts get to the stage of being gone, hold on to the hugs
While writing this
I remembered how I reacted when an aunt lost her 6-day old baby
I just heard the news and I didn’t cry, I only felt for her
The reason was because I never had a physical connection with the baby, so there were no memories
But the same experience occurred with my late younger sister
And I still reminisce about those small little fiddle times
In your journey of life
I do hope you remember that
The physical matters
As it holds the essence of every other thing
The people
The bed
The time and the watch
The planet earth
The land
It all matters
And one day, the extremes of the technology will complete the cycle of time
And the Data and tech city life will be psychologically overwhelming and you’d try to escape the exotic and to-be-toxic experience to seek solace in the old haggard huts and village
The toy experience will never compare to the mountain and ocean view experience