I’m not going to lie, it’s been a while since I paid a visit to my friends around here. Yeah, I admit that things have not really been easy, with the growing economic meltdown, forcing me to work harder than I usually would, and the final weeks of school life draining my blood right out of my veins, it’s not easy at all. I have to work, I have to school, and I still have to actually live life as well. Where would I see the time to actually balance all these areas of my life? How the hell do I make it work?
The honest answer is that I really don’t know. Balancing all three aspects of my life has not been easy, I thought I’d been making it work but all that was just the delulu talking. The only part I seem to have under control is school and work. When it comes to work and doing the things I have to do, that is one area I don’t lag behind. I still always deliver and I make sure everyone is happy when all is said and done. The same goes for school, I don’t lag behind on assignments and tests, I’m always out there doing what is necessary to get the papers I’m after.
However, my social life seems to have taken a beating as a result. I rarely step out anymore, and the only time I see people is usually when I’m going to classes or when I have to buy one thing or the other. Whenever my friends call me so we can hang out, I don’t usually have the time. That’s not an excuse though, because I really do not usually have the time. I’m either working or I’m slaving away at an assignment or preparing for an upcoming test.
And so, time flies. From the looks of things, I don’t think this is a trait that will go away any time soon. At least until I take schooling out of the equation, once I’m done, maybe I’ll be able to get things in balance once again. Maybe then I’ll be able to hang out with friends and take myself out as I used to. Because for now, all that is not possible in any way at all. Telling myself any different will, like I already mentioned, just be the delulu talking.
Still though, it could also be that the situation of things in the country is responsible for this withdrawal from socializing. After all, things are really expensive these days and with every every step you take outside your house, a debit alert seems to hit your phone. For everything that you do outside, you have to pay through your nose for it. The streets are merciless, and if you’re not careful, they’ll take the clothes right off your back and leave you to run home naked.
So, I guess that’s why I’m choosing the safer option of staying home. It’s a safer tactic of avoiding billing. Although it deprives me of the company of my friends and also forces me to only communicate with them through social media, for now, I guess it will be the new normal. Hopefully, with time, it’ll be a bit easier to step out of my house. I guess only time will tell.
