Is there someone who is always full of energy every minute, hour, or day? If so, how did they do it? For the past few days I have felt very empty, without achieving contentment or joy. Just being lazy doesn't mean I feel sad, it's just that I don't want to work a lot, don't want to exercise, and don't want anything obvious. Unsatisfied with the things that have been done and not done. I knew it wasn't okay and good for my mental health, I let it go and wallowed in it to find out my cause. I think solving a problem is more effective when I understand how it works? I find it cyclical, sometimes as brief as a day in hours, and sometimes over days. There have been times like that in the past, but at that time it was very difficult to identify it and find a way to fix it.
It can disappear on its own without me realizing it in time, sometimes with the help of people around like family, friends or recreational facilities, sports, walking in nature. But this time I don't use those things anymore, but find a way to save myself in another way. And part of me also has no feelings or desires for the above help. I think it could also be a form of "meditation". Although I never understood it or practiced it, because I have a problem with my back pain, it was difficult to sit still for 15 minutes.
1: Cause
_ Everything is fine
- Oh heard and seen is the truth of life that everyone wants to achieve. I realized that I always wanted to be in control of my life, at least according to my wishes. I want the work to be on schedule no matter what, colleagues or superiors make me unhappy because of my opinion or thinking. I think that is good, but I refuse to listen to the thoughts of those around me. Collective work productivity suffers from loose cooperation. Then I found more freelance work, but the problems persisted.
_ Comparison: before I knew Hive, I regularly used the social network Facebook, where the most connected with friends and personal interests in that community. It exploits curiosity and inadvertently causes the user to always compare the lives of others. A double-edged sword when misused and looking at other people's lives through the rearview mirror. Of course everyone shares their joy on it and shows how happy they are and how they live their lives. Hive is very different but sometimes I still compare myself to others.
- Self-pressure: Pressure is always blamed on the circumstances, the environment or the people around, because they have affected me like that. But it was entirely my own fault that I put pressure on myself, set unrealistic or too big goals when I had to sacrifice some time and habits. The future is something that has not happened yet but is always expected to happen according to imaginary thoughts. Insecurity comes more from the self than from society.
2: Solve it
- Normally, I often use cycling, jogging to recharge positive energy and forget those stressful worries or go for a walk somewhere like the beach or a nearby mountain. This time I didn't want to do those things at all, I just surfed the web or social media and immersed in it purposefully. Simply to find out how it works and I listen to the emotions rising inside me when entertaining videos or other people's lives on social media are affecting me. Emotions of envy, lust, jealousy or joy are respected and heard. That makes me more stable mentally and know what the cause is.
- The rest of the time I usually go out and find the feeling of being alone, and somewhere very airy and quiet. Of course I will mix with activity a little. Observe and observe, completely focused on the space I am in, searching for the visual images that I acquire. There I was touched by life, nature, flora and fauna and realized how lucky I was to breathe and admire it. It turned out that I was living a hopeless life on my own where I missed out on other values. Life inherently needs problems, if not it plays an important role. What if life is always as good and happy as in heaven. It must have created a sense of boredom over time and seriousness. It creates self-improvement and cognitive maturity.
If I had everything I wanted, what would I have left to look forward to and hope for?
Difficulties bring maturity.
And I am aware that life is a gift. While still breathing, accept it no matter what it brings. Say thank you because life is still flawed.
*** The first three photos were taken by my friend @whynotcamp during a hike together, using a Nikon D750. The other two photos were taken by me with my LG V50 ***
