I'm about to take another step in the next level of my University journey and all of a sudden there's this fear that I feel .
I sat and thought of how far I'd come and how failng will be detrimental to my journey.
The thing is most of my life, I've not had situations where i failed, I've always been a topper and the feeling has always been amazing.
Until .....
Well I got into the university or college and it was a whole different world and struggle, combining my skills and studies, staying up to read and do lots of assignments at night, running around for classes and sometimes the lecturer doesn't show up, how about impromptu tests, and of course the crowded classroom, I'm sure some Nigerian students can relate.
My first Year in school was quite an experience, starting something new ,i had my thoughts but then it was such an amazing first year,i made a friend, and my results were great.
In my second year I'd started quite optimistic and I carried on with that spirit,i didn't slack one bit and I put in all my efforts in studies.
Exams came and I wrote all my hearts content on my scripts and made sure i got extra,yes i read and studied enough to fill my papers up, not with nonsense but with the very things I'd been taught and the things I'd learnt through research.
Results came and my heart dropped.
A carryover that brought me mixed feelings.
One carryover dampened my mood and it still does, especially after all the effort i put, even teaching those who didn't quite understand the course.
School became so much of a load and i felt like giving up but I still needed to keep pushing till I was done with my second year.
Now if you ask me why I'm afraid, I'll tell you it's because im quite uncertain about what my Third year is going to be like , especially since it's almost the last lap of my time in the university.
I've thought and thought about how it's going to be, and I've decided that I have no choice but put in all my efforts again, let go of fearful thoughts and keep pushing .
I might have fears but I've thought to myself and I'm certain that fear would only keep me stuck and fear won't let me take up this new year with any form of enthusiasm and I don't want that.
Tough as it is I'll keep pushing, the fears may be there but i won't give up on the hope of finishing well.
To every student out there burdened with much thought as i am, Keep Pushing, it'll only get better and you'll definitely push through only, and only if you put your mind to it.
Stay strong.
Have an amazing week.
PS: photo shot by me.