Quite the journey of pain, growth, perseverance, transcendence and triumph. Keep doing brilliant work that you are destined to deliver brother, there will never be a Jin/Toby/Brave-Smoke on Earth before or after you. Cheers for sharing with us the story of your life and thanks for not being 'normal' and instead being extra-ordinary. It's a challenging task to look back and see the trails in the desert from the coffins of trauma dragged, to sit with, sort and cut away what no longer serves you. But YOU must do this or you can never rise into your complete and whole self and walk your journey free to your destiny.