76 months in prison... I had to accept it. (beginning )

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Hello
I am İsmail Alkan, I am 33 years old, I want to share my past life, I will tell you briefly, the period I was in prison for 76 months, in this life you have to love yourself first, if you don't you can hurt yourself a lot like me, I started working after I got out of the military. I was working in the kitchen department of Narlıdere nursing home, I had a routine life, of course I had a girlfriend and one day my girlfriend told me that she was pregnant, I was confused about what to do, I decided to get married. She was studying in the literature department, she was in her senior year, I went and picked her up from Manisa girls' dormitory and brought her to my house in Izmir.

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Then we talked, we went to the hospital, they showed the child on the screen, his hands and feet were just starting to form, then we went home, he was seeing messages on his phone, one after another, I said look. I asked for the phone but she didn't give it to me, then I took the phone from her by force, it was written by a man, "Walking hand in hand with you, making eye contact with you, I was devastated, I decided to abort the baby immediately, we went and had an abortion, I regretted it very much, I started drinking alcohol, then drugs." I started using, I quit my job, I left my family behind, money wasn't enough anymore, I was addicted to drugs, Then I started selling but it didn't end because life was over for me, I always blamed myself, who was I to destroy the life God gave me, we had the child aborted, so I I wanted to die, then I got caught. My whole life changed when I was taken to Buca E type closed prison. ,And I walked through the door, there were 2 sections in the prison, the new section and the old section, they were throwing the new prisoners into the old section, I was in the old section. There will be more to come, I will write you about every month of the past 76 months, this is just the beginning.

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Thank you for reading my blog!

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Everyone can make a mistake in their life. The main thing is that you realized this. No need to feel guilty anymore. God is loving, he forgives those who repent.

Thank you, now it's a new life, a new city, everything is great.

Every mistake is a lesson in life. Don't blame yourself. Just ask God forgiveness and forgive yourself and move on. I know, it's not easy, but see it this way; some people don't get a second chance. You got a second chance, make the best of it my friend!

I always ask God for forgiveness. I'm trying to forgive myself, it's hard but I'm still trying, but your article put me at ease, thank you for your support.

It is probably very unpleasant to feel such a betrayal, having a relationship with a person for a long time and trusting him🤯

Yes, it was a very unpleasant situation, but it passed.