The answer is, I suppose, that this is depression.
Wow, that is such a powerful blog post! I feel like you are speaking straight to me, even though we have never met before. Hi, I am @frittro, and I've recently started watching the newly created content on the HIVE social blockchain for any mention of the word "diabetes", as I am helping to start up this new Hive Diabetes Peer Support (HDPS) Community.
But there is more to me than just being a Type diabetic. I also have autism, chronic heart issues, and, yes, mental health issues as well. I often make a joke about the interaction between these issues that I face, it goes something like this...
The heart says that it needs more exercise. I should go for a run!
The diabetes says yes, exercise is good, but I need to check my blood sugar level as well.
The autism thinks that this is a great opportunity to make some more graphs and statistics!
The depression says, "%&@# it, I'm off back to bed! You lot do what you like."
Haha.
I don't think modern medicine can help me.
When it comes to the depression, I too have come to the same conclusion. The medical profession, including psychiatrists and psychologists, have practically given up on me. The medications they give me have no effect whatsoever on my mood, no matter what they try. I do respond well with a social worker though, and I used to attend a community support centre called Te Ata, but that was in those pre-COVID days that are now becoming dim memories.
Your post has been curated by @frittro of the Hive Diabetes Peer Support (HDPS) Community. We are a new HIVE Community created recently, and officially launched on 1-Apr-2022, here on the social blockchain and on Discord. Our goal is to become a place to discuss your own or a loved one's experience of diabetes, for shared mutual peer support and encouragement.