Damn!
April has been one hell of a month for me. One crazy month. Respect to everyone who has had a rough week, or last couple of weeks.
Unachieved Goals
At the beginning of every month, I always set goals to achieve for the month. Looking at April goals two days ago. I had 5 major goals. Sadly, I could only achieve one. I stare at myself with disdain, about my inability to successfully complete the rest.
School
At this point, I don't know if to support the motion of school being a scam. It is freaking tiring. My school resumed academic activities this semester. However, fortunately for me, unlike the previous sessions, lectures are physical. Jokes on me because, as a virtual student, I hardly keep up, talk more of Physical classes.
Throughout this past two weeks of resumption, over 50 classes, I shamelessly attended 2. Most times, I plan to attend, but then I work very late into the night/morning (around 7am) and wake up quite late in the morning and decide the rest of the class is not worth attending for one reason or the other.
For a girl who actually wants to graduate with good grades, I am nonchalant af with school. However, I promised myself never to drop out of any institution ever again. So, it wouldn't hurt to try.
Electricity, Water, e.t.c
lol
The basic infrastructures that is meant to ease my life has turned into a nightmare. My community has been facing a lot of difficulties, specifically, the issue of power. Lately, we have been without access to electricity since last year.
The situation started when the community transformer malfunctioned and was replaced with a new one. Unfortunately, the new transformer only worked for 24 hours before it also stopped working, leaving us without power once again
So, no electricity, and as a result of that, no water, the available source of water has been abused by a lot of people, worse of it all, the source runs dry from time to time.
Silver lining, I am glad my rent will expire in June, therefore, I will have to move out in May.
Personal Life
I'm going to have to be very careful talking about this for a lot of reasons. Managing my emotions has been hardcore hardwork. My emotions has been all over the place. I can't wait for tomorrow to be over, so that I can mentally move to a better state.
- A lot of rejection mails
- I drank to stupor, hungover twice.
- Re - evaluated a lot of my choices.
- Was dissapointed.
- Made contact with people I wasn't even suposed to talk to...
- Hurt.
- procrastinated
- Anxiety attacks
- Finished my books for the month 😇
However,
Irrespective of everything, I am grateful I didn't get swallowed by the distractions. I am thankful for new chances I am here because I didn't give up. Shoutout to friends who have always been there, and my sister 🤍 for everything
Lastly, May better be better.
