Chapter Nineteen
We had morning lecture the next Monday morning and I was unable to catch up with her when we were done so I just decided to visit her at home cause I couldn't afford her being angry with me for a long time.
Maybe she was not just in her best mood that weekend to answer that kind of question or I pushes too hard.
I walked towards her door slowly praying in my mind for her to be around, knocking on her door gently fortunately for me she came to open up staring at me kind of surprisingly.
"Can I come in,"I asked breaking the silence that had took place.
"Yeah sorry," she answered calmly.
I had escorted her to her door step many times but it's the first time am actually visiting properly and I felt embarrassed because I came to settle our dispute this very day.Her sitting room was simply furnished and she was staying in a room and parlour apartment.
"You shouldn't stand just staring at me the first time you entered,you should sit,"she offered.
"Thank you,"I said finally settling down on the sofa opposite her.
"Am sorry about the other day,"I finally blurted out after some minutes of another silence.
"It's fine I'm sorry for getting angry I shouldn't have maybe it's best I talk to someone about it already," she said and I sat in silence waiting for her to pour out her mind.
"Like I said the other day I'm actually not in a relationship with anybody not even Michelle as I told you he's just my best friend although I'm very much aware he has feelings for me but I didn't give in to his request to be his girlfriend we actually made some terrible mistakes together the previous year that lead to a big fight but we are getting over it now.But then he wants me to become his woman now and have been talking him out of it he his just trying to prove his serious about his feelings for me," she said and fell silent again but then I had a question.
"But why,"I asked
"Why what," she asked back.
"Why don't you want a relationship with him or anybody else,"I asked, she shrugged at first and then answered.
"Well cuz love and relationships stuff has taught me hard experiences that I never knew I could have it hasn't taught me what the word love me really meant I haven't really have too much of relationships but maybe when the right person comes that very person that could show me and make me feel what love really means maybe then,"her voice trailed off tears streaming down her cheeks.
"I'm so sorry I didn't know love life has been hard on you I'm very sorry,"I kept saying and when she finally found her voice she spoke again.
"It's fine I feel a bit relieved talking about it to someone,"she said staring blankly now.
We sat in silence again for about half an hour I felt like telling her about my own personal life and the reason I had used to be a friend at the first place but I wasn't able to summon up enough courage, I think it's should be a story for another day entirely.
This very babe l claim to have feelings for has not really have a perfect love life but then me myself haven't had any love life on my side then how could I console her with my own feelings left me with too many missing puzzles of my own life.
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The 4th semester of our 4th year proceeded slowly but then it finally came to an end, Tobi escorted me to the car park where I boarded the bus going to Lagos and we both waved goodbye to each other he would also be going to his parent's house the next day to spend his vacation.
Michelle had went immediately the exams were over because something came up for him at home.
I arrived a bit late cause their was lot of traffic, when I finally managed to have dinner I went to my bedroom and fell asleep.
When I woke up the next morning it was a Sunday morning I went on my knees and pray at first then I went over to clean my teeth and took my bath before I finally went downstairs and said good morning to my parents and siblings.
After breakfast I sat in the living room with my family, my parents has attended the early morning service at our church before I woke up we were all sitting everyone minding our business it was almost close to noon when we heard a knock on her door.
Tolani offered to go check who it was and when she walked back in with David coming behind her she looks surprised as much as I was but my parents were glad to see him.
He even brought provisions with him and a gift for each of my parents presenting it beaming with smiles, finally he was done exchanging pleasantries with my family he said he wanted to have a free moment with me and we both went out to stand on our way balcony.
After we stepped out then came the question " "Have you thought about my request," he asked with smiles on his lips .
"I don't think I have anything to think about,"I replied simply.
"Miriam am sorry about what happened in the past okay and I want you to know that my feelings are still very strong," he said going down on his knees he brought out a gold ring with silver diamond and i gasped at the sight of it this was the last thing I expected from David.
"Miriam please I want you to marry me, I want you to be the mother of my kids please Princess," he said pleading and when I finally found my voice I spoke
" I'm sorry David but I can't accept this proposal okay," I said walking towards the door he grabbed my arm gently.
" Miriam please I'm ready to give you more time to finish with your education I can surely wait for as long as you want," he said persuadly.
"David please at this point I'm confused ok I don't know where my heart belongs and I need to figure it out just more time please," I said calmly.
"It's fine by me Miriam I'm ready to wait if that what pleases you but I know you still have a place for me in your heart ,"he said and I moved towards the door him following behind.
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Finally when David left I went to my room laid on my bed and thought about the proposal I'm so very confused Michelle had asked me to be his woman before he left for vacation and Toby has been so caring and loving that I realized my heart beating around recently although he hasn't asked me out and with David it has been the feelings from the years back but I'm so confused on who my heart belongs to David, Michelle, or Tobi? the answer is still a missing puzzle to me.
Who do you think her heart belongs to?
It's still actually a missing puzzle to me too guys 🤷
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