Thinking back again, that picture above was taken in 2023 when I was enthusiastic about all the goals, I had set for myself. I was so optimistic that I believed nothing could stop me from achieving those things. I guess I was fooling around with my naive idea. Don't get me wrong now, I am still full of dreams and hope but after seeing the new Hivenaija weekly prompt, it got me thinking deeply and I just felt I would use this opportunity to pour out my heart.
It's the second quarter of the year already, and it's time to evaluate myself. Now, if I am to scale myself from 1 to 10, how would I rate myself in terms of reaching the goals I laid out at the beginning of the year?
I did write some big goals, something I know I can achieve in the space of one year, things that a young graduate and a bachelor would need in their life. Some of them are, getting a new job and probably working from home, getting an apartment of my own, saving up a huge amount of money before the second half of the year, and so on. Very easy to accomplish right?
Remember I told you at the beginning how naive that thought was? If you think you can make plans and everything will be handed to you on a platter of gold, then I think you need to wake up, especially in the country "Naija."
If I were to rate myself according to the plans I made and how far I have gone with them, I would rate myself 5/10. It might seem low like I am not doing anything to achieve those things I have set my mind on.
Let's talk about the job, I did get a job. It was a remote job also. Not a big pay but enough to take care of my primary needs. Was I able to save it? Yes, I was able to save up a good amount of money this year. Was I able to get an apartment of my choice? definitely.
But guess what? The feeling of achieving something isn't there. The economy is so messed up I feel like some of the goals I set which are at the tip of my hands keep getting farther away. The more I try to get some of the goals, the more it feels like the policies made both in the economic sector, educational sector, food industry, security forces, and so on are made to work against me and my goals. I can't even seem to fight again, I seem powerless which is why I rate myself 5/10, let's think about it again!! I think I deserve more because I have been surviving even when every odd was against me.
Although I had to alter some of my plans that were set for this year, I think things are still going according to plan. Based on my hustle, struggle, and persistence I'll give myself an 8/10.
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