I think it's important to keep a balance in things. Yeah, balance, that's the right word. Cause the guy who wants too much risks losing absolutely everything. Of course, the one who wants too little from life might not get anything at all. (Thomas 'Tommy' Angelo from Mafia 1)
My mother is still alive and her health is not bad. We have a roof over our heads. We are not starving. My country is not being attacked and destroyed by another country. Even Hive price is climing up. It would seem that I should be completly happy with my life because some other people have it far worse than me. And yet...I still want more. To tell the thruth I think that it is human nature to always want more something. More money, fame,love, sex, cars, better health, more time to live...
I never had a girlfriend or friend with benefits. So naturally I never kissed a girl or had sex either. That means that I don't know if I am missing out anything. But still I would like to try that in the future.
In terms of money I am quite poor but like I said others have it even worse. How much would money would satisfy me? Honestly I am not to sure. I think that having 10k eur in my bank account, 50-60k HP and 5-10k HBD would be quite awesome. I think that at that point I would not have too worry about money. My needs are not very great. So as long as I would find the right balance between needs and wants I should be fine. But even then I probably would not be satisfied... Because I also want more recognition. I enjoy making art but I also want to sell more of my art. And I think I would still want to succeed selling my pieces even if I was already rich and famous. I don't expect to ever get millions for my works because not all of us can be banana artist. But I have made so many pieces that I lost count. Probably around a 100. And sold only 5 so far. So I would like to be able to sell most of my pieces. I would like to get maybe 300-500 eur for a piece of my art. So If I had everything I mentioned so far would I be happy or would I still want something more? Perhaps at that point I would have bigger dreams wants. And some of my wants will never be fufiled- for egzample I want to read the ending of Berserk but original author is dead and his friend who is continuing a story is quite old as well. So it is possible that Berserk will not get the ending it deserves.
But all those desires are secondary for now. For now I just wish that plumber would finally come to our house because we lived this month without water and could not heat up the house either. A plumber was suppose to come last friday(?) but he didn't so we are still waiting...at this point it is really annoying.
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