This gal contacted me from the Agorist Market. I guess I had posted an offer to do barter. That's fine - I don't sell these anyhow - they take so long - I could never sell them for what they are worth - so giving them away is better.
I pulled The All card – The All is mental: This is a huge concept in the Kybalion. You can read up on that here:
https://www.sacred-texts.com/eso/kyb/kyb06.htm
but for the purpose of this reading;
I recommend the 7-day mental diet by Emmet Fox. You can get this from my website. https://intuitiveart.net/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/7-Day-Mental-Diet.pdf
The Auragraph
There is what appears to be an angel – but upon closer observation – it is not. It’s the ego-self and the Higher Self fused together. It is an illusion of development because there is a winged heart that lends the visual of wings to the self/Higher Self. The heart with wings however is the heart’s desire to carry it’s message into the world and and it needs the self to release the Higher Self and to mature in order for that to happen.
The self/Higher Self is cradling a baby – and it is a deformed baby. And the baby is in a lot of pain. The baby is crying.
The Higher Self is responsible for the baby and she has not been living up to her responsibility. This is not an unusual scenario. Whenever there is abuse involved, before the Higher Self detaches from the ego-self – it cannot see the child for what it is – a helpless baby that needs love and a strong parent – it is attached to the ego-self and so it loathes the child as the parents and family members taught it to. The child always has to take responsibility for what happened in the home, in order to survive, so the child has a warped and unrealistic view. In order to survive the situation, the child has to tell itself it is wrong because it needs the parents to be alright in order for it to be able to depend on them. This is carried into adult-hood.
The Higher Self must detach from the ego-self through Meditation and Prayer and become a part of the Creator – the liason to the Creator, in order to be effective. It must become an observer Self which observes the child, the ego-self, and the other fragments. Eventually through healing, the fragmented selves which broke off during trauma will come underneath the Higher Self.
The ego-self/Higher Self’s left hand is covering the mouth of the child. The baby is trying, using both hands, to pull her hand away from the spot where her mouth should be. There is no mouth there under the hand. The message is that whatever dark secrets the child has to tell are not welcome. The child is muted. Again this is how you can tell that you, have much work to do yourself to prepare yourself to become a good parent to your child self. The left hand represents the dark secrets – the left side – the feminine – receptive shadow side.
Mainly, your ego is still too calcified for you to realize (real-ize) – make real – who you are, who the self is, who your Higher Self is and who your child self is. There is a lot of pain involved. Fear and life and death feelings that you worry will kill you.
These are the feelings of a little child. A little child, dependent upon it’s caregivers for survival, believes that it will die if it can’t get it’s needs met – and this is true – but it is not true for the adult- but because of the trauma of the adult has not been shaken out of the body and is stuck in the body, the triggered adult believes that those feelings truly will kill them.
So the adult does not support the child self – it believes that it must stifle the child self.
This is a lie. The child self is the Source of all that is good in the person. It is that which is connected to wonder and delight of God and the Creation and Nature. The adult must surrender to the Higher Self and allow the Higher Self to connect with God and then begin to nurture the child.
The sun is behind you and it is fully behind you. The sun is light source. Think of it in terms of Astro-Theology – The Sun – is the The Son. The Father is The Creator, The Son is the Light of the World. The sun is at your back – the sun has your back and He is illuminating the path ahead. The Holy Spirit is your Intuition and your Emotions.
So, where to begin? Meditation. Breathe in to your heart and breathe out through your belly. You can put your right hand on your heart while you do this. Make the outbreath longer than the inbreath. This will connect the heart to the mind. Work up to be able to sit quietly for 20 minutes. Start with 1 minute and increase as you can.
Do self-soothing actions. You can find these on youtube: self-soothing actions for trauma – havening. You can do EFT Tapping – which you can find demonstrated on youtube.
Watch videos about Trauma. Read the book The Body Keeps The Score, which you can download free as a pdf from libgen.is or get cheaply from Amazon used.
Once you have done this for a while, start to talk nicely to your child self. Treat your child self as you would treat a baby bird you might find on the forest floor – you would take that baby bird home and put it in a soft box and feed it and nurture it – start to treat your child self this way.
After a while, once you develop a relationship with your child self – you can include her in your decision making processes – ask her how she feels, what she wants, etc - you can meditate on what happened and ask God to step in and be there with that child that you were at that time – you can leave that child in the place where she was abused, with God as her companion.
When I speak of God- I mean your own understanding of Spirit. So whatever works for you.
After a while of doing that, use your non-dominant hand to dialogue with your inner child. If you are right handed use your left hand- and also you can start to let your inner child make some art. Give her verbal expression to tell you what you need to know.
You may never get the full story of what happened. I remember a lot of mine but there are blank spots that I simply have no idea what happened. I have no clear memory but I have drawings and I don’t know for sure that they are real. That’s ok.
It is obvious from the drawing that you were abused as a baby. That’s why the legs are deformed and the sexual parts are not there – this has stunted every area of your life for your whole life. But you know this.
There are 30 rays on the sun. There are 3 tears from the baby’s eyes. There is a triple helix in the heart.
3-6-9 -
The Infinity Symbol: Is about God – you must find a relationship with the Spirit – of your own understanding, to replace your misguided parents.
The 3-6-9 Trinity message is about the Father, the Holy Spirit and the Son or the Thoughts, Emotions and Actions – all have to be aligned in order for the being to be whole. How to do that? It is a life’s work.
The work you have to do to get there is first to get back into alignment with Natural Law yourself and then get the Trauma Work done. If you get back into alignment with Natural Law you will get back into alignment with the sunlight of the Spirit and then you will begin to attract the necessary funds to get the Trauma work done.
You will also be given the power to help others like yourself and to have compassion.
Here’s the sigil I would suggest.
I surrender to God by which I am led to the Truth and a new freedom.
