No Excuse: I'm Just Lazy

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Hello there.
It's been so long again.
This time, no excuse, I'm just lazy.

I'm not sure how what has gotten to me 2 Days ago, I tried to withdraw and well, after 2 apps, bBinance and Maya, I got my 100php.

So yeah,another motivation to get back to this, to earn some for my personal wants.

The store is going well and I spent much with its papers like permits and stuff, at last, I had it in my name legally.

If you know me with my previous blogs, this news might sound impossible; I got myself a boyfriend. Yeah, you read it right.

He's very smart especially in emotional aspect and I am so envious of him with such. It's very evident that I'm too emotional. Haha

Anyway, it was his birthday few days ago and I wrote him a poem.

Here it is.

With my vocabulary decreasing so much these days,
I'm struggling to put words and phrases for your birthday;
Truth be told, I cleaned my bicycle to think,
Funny, I had so many thoughts but I can't get them to link.

My thoughts did wander so far in the future,
I know I shouldn't but I could be so immature;
There are days I'm kind of having major scare
That you're so awesome, a gem so rare.

I have heard a similar narrative in the past,
I can't help but think that it's impossible we'll last;
It's kind of amazing for you know how to moderate,
Lest we find ourselves so emotionally illiterate. (Haha)

I'm really in doubt, so apprehensive
As a write these, I am sad it's not so expressive;
It may be true or just my morale so low,
You're a demigod so thanks for looking here below.

I love you and I know you're convinced,
I do feel like what hurts me will also make you winced;
You've been saying that most things you do understand,
Jelly's so grateful, hopeful you're not a sinking sand.

Currently, I'm struggling to keep my cool, seems like it's in my DNA to be such a "boa constrictor". hahaha

He knows me too much, can read my emotion and reprimanded me that I shouldn't be offended if he's living his life, more like, he still needs to live. He's in depressive state and of course, I do understand and really know how it feels.

So yes, gonna give him space and because I deactivated my Facebook account, here I am again.

This platform feels like home as I keep coming back. Haha

-*
Photo's mine.

Thank you for reading.
Ciao!

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Well hello Jelly and well done that is brilliant news about the shop and your boyfriend. Everything seems to be going great for you.

Boyfriend is pretty distant and I'm struggling with money here in store. Hahaha it's not that well.

There's always an underlying reason for laziness. Lack of motivation, etc.

Indeed. Haha and money is my motivation now.