Sometimes our ill loved ones don't want to depart from us yet. They still want to stay and live with us for a long. However, if they feel they are already a burden, they will just go even to the truth they can still hold.
This happened to my grandfather who passed away 2 years ago.
I lived with my Lolo Juan when I was 6 years old together with his wife, my step-grandmother Nida and his children, and my step-uncles, Juan Jr., Janno, and Jacob. They are the second family of my grandfather that became legitimate even though he has a first family with 5 children, to which my mom belongs. He married his mistress instead of my mom's mother.
In the younger days of my mom and her other siblings, they feel behind, when their stepmother appears. Their life became miserable every day. She made them like slaves whenever Lolo Juan was out in their house. Everything was controlled by her and Lolo always listen to her.
Since then, mom and her sibling don't get love and attention from Lolo. All were taken by their stepmother.
Until one day, they found out that she was cheating on Lolo with their "Kumpare" friend. They quickly told to their father but he didn't believe them instead he flogged mom and her siblings for inventing lies. Lolo had beaten them many times and their stepmother keeps incited to make Lolo gets angry with his children.
When I lived at Lolo Juan's house I experience the same scenario. My step-grandmother invited her lover to our house when Lolo is on the farm. They went to the room and lock themselves up. She told me to call her and knock when I saw Lolo Juan is coming. So I did.
I knock on the door but she never responded. So when my Lolo Juan is already in the house and looking for her I told him that she was inside with her friend.
Lolo was so furious that he kicked the door and we saw them both shocked. Lolo get his long dagger and was about to stab the guy but he jumped out the window. My step-grandmother cried out loud and beg to Lolo to stop. Lolo cries in anger but after that day they were okay again.
The infidelity of my step-grandmother continues whenever my Lolo was out. By the way, she punished me the last time I told my grandfather about her sh*t. She tweaked my hair, slaps me, and let me kneel in the mung beans for half a day. She told me she will do it again if I tell it to anyone.
I told it to mom and they fight. She gets me out there. While on the other hand, Lolo still didn't listen.
When he gets ill mom and her siblings send money for him but his condition gets worsening cause his wife doesn't take care of her. The wounds on his feet that he gets from farming decayed. No one assisted him even his second children. He was admitted to the hospital and diagnosed with diabetes. His eyes have also been damaged. He can't see clearly and often stumbles when he tries to get up.
Lolo was just 64 when he left this world. I know he still wants to live but hearing arguments from his family makes him feel weak.
Mom and her sibling want to get Lolo and transfer him to another hospital but his wife stops them and said they don't have a right to do that.
Wherever my Lolo Juan is, I pray he finds real love with God. In Him, he won't need to insist and beg love for he will shower it.
No more pain to Lolo.
