Greetings all
The year is already in full swing! I haven't had much time to do any of my own writing, as I spent the last two weeks working on an outline of a 60,000-word book. Hopefully, that will be wrapped up soon!
Anyway, looks like I may have some time to write the weekend. However, my mother is here, so may hang out with her instead. I guess I'll see what happens!
“Well go on then.”
She sighed, “Once the twins understood what I was asking for they were against the idea. They too were scarred at what they had done and couldn’t bear me having those memories play out if they were to do as I wanted of them. I begged, I pleaded, but nothing. They would not budge. I tried to explain to them that I desperately wanted to feel loved only for them to shut me down, saying what they had done wasn’t love. Then Kartec said that if we wanted to do any of this, we’d have to start from scratch.”
“What? Like dating?”
“Yes.”
Saita couldn’t help but snort again. Her relationship with Bolx had never had anything like that as he was too busy trying to woo her and she had been clueless.
“But dating would mean I would have to choose, and I couldn’t. I told them that. Told them I would rather be lonely for the rest of my life than choose between the two of them. Astin was the one who suggested we date as a unit. I didn’t know how to feel about it. Polygamy wasn’t something I had considered. While not strictly illegal, if certain laws were followed, it wasn’t something that was often done. Especially in modern times and definitely not amongst royalty. With my answer from the twins, I went to Jarah for council. He was shocked that I had had these thoughts without speaking to him. He didn’t know what to say or what advice to give. All he could stammer was that this was up to me.”
“I guess you didn’t jump in with both feet.”
“Hell no. I was terrified of rejection and acceptance. I hid myself behind my mask once more and disappeared from the public eye. Jarah had no idea what was going on and had to drag the information from the twins. He had to sit us all down like we were teenagers to explain the pros and cons of the situation we were in. Had we been teenagers, the obvious advice would have been to go have fun and remember to use birth control, but our history was too tainted for that. I didn’t like to be in enclosed spaces with the twins, and I still jumped when they touched me, despite what I wanted from them. Jarah had his misgivings but agreed to be our chaperone while we navigated our needs. You wouldn’t think it with us all being over 30.”
“Did it help?”
“It did. It took time, but it did. Within a year, Jarah was less frequent in our gatherings, and within two, I felt safe enough to spend the night in the twins’ home. It took a little longer before we decided on this.” She indicated her current form.
She smiled. “Aidan was the crowned prince, with his position on the throne well cemented. Kartec and Astin both claimed him, and no one fought it. The twins and I were just broaching the topic of intimacy when Kartec asked if I would ever be willing to have more children. I was stunned. I had never thought of it. He said while he knew he and his brother claimed Aidan, he always doubted who was the father, and he knew Astin felt the same way. He was wondering if I would ever be open to having more children. The look of shame on his face when he asked that of me, I didn’t know what to say other than to turn to Astin and ask him if he felt the same way. He couldn’t even look me in the face. I couldn’t blame them, either of them could be the father but they would never know with Aidan. They had both been good fathers once they had come into the boy’s life and I knew they would be amazing fathers if they had more children, but they had never gone on to have more children, despite almost 20 years passing since the incident. I remember thinking of my pregnancy with Aidan. It hadn’t been terrible once I had the positive pregnancy test, the development had been without issues, and while early, the birth had been quick. I had never thought of having a child after Aidan but now an idea had been put in my head.”
She grinned wickedly, “I thought about it for days. I was still young enough for children, but only just. I had all but ignored Aidan’s existence as a baby, allowing my milk production to dry as I never breastfed. It had been painful, and my body had craved for me to hold the youngster, but I never could. This could be a way to redo everything, but I was concerned that Aidan would never forgive me if I did this. I forced myself to talk to him about it. He had been married for about a year by then, planning his own child, and was shocked when I basically came to ask his permission. He called me stupid and said that nothing should stand in my way to finally be happy. He had been privy to his fathers wooing me and had hoped that I would finally let my guard down. He told me to go and consider who would be the first if I wanted a natural experience. That was a whole different breakdown in my mind. Turns out the twins already had a plan if I agreed. Kartec wanted to have the first chance at being a father, and Astin would have the second. All they asked was a child each, a child to be sure that they both were fathers. I agreed. That was four years ago. Amai was conceived within two months of Kartec and I trying, but it took about six months before I was comfortable enough to allow him to touch me like that. I finally felt the love I craved, and it wasn’t just Kartec. Astin was there every step of the way, sharing in everything his brother did, except conceiving. Once his niece was born and about a year old, I approached him for his opportunity for a child, and well, here we are now.”
“Are you happy?”
I have had this piece in my head for a while. In fact, it had been written before I even got started really diving into Fledgling. I hope you all enjoyed it!
For those of you who have never heard of Fell Dragon you can find Book 1 here, Book 2 here, Book 3 here, and Book 4 here, Book 5 here, Book 6 here, Book 7 here, and Book 8 here
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As the series continues, it will combine with another book series I wrote. To avoid confusion about what is happening, introductory chapters will be introduced separately so that you don't have to be lost. However, these chapters will contain spoilers. You can find these chapters here:
Races Explained
Banishment
Royal Guard
Saasha’s Direct Family
Saith Characters Recap
Human Characters Recap
Alternate Timeline Brucel
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