¿Quién soy? # 9 [Esp/Eng]

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Saludos Comunidad #holos-lotus


¿Cómo puedo vivir mi vida en plenitud cuando sé que puedo morir en cualquier instante?


Hablar de vida y muerte es un tema que en tiempos actuales encontramos diferentes opiniones, versiones, aunque lo màs importante es como cada uno percibimos el tema.

En retrospectiva, una familia de 8 hermanos, papà y mamà, siempre juntos en fechas importantes como cumpleaños, bautizos, navidad, año nuevo, muchas sonrisas.

El fallecimiento de mi abuela materna quizàs no signiicò mucho para mi por diversas razones, que luego fui entendiendo y sanando...la verdad no compartì mucho con ella y su sitio de residencia era muy alejado en otra ciudad. Mi madre, pasaba muchos meses cuando ya mi abuela estaba en el camino de Dios.

Mi hermana mayor cuando falleciò siento que fue muy doloroso, mi hermana mayor , la compañera de mis padres, porque ya los demàs estabamos en universidades, en el mundo laboral y iniciando familia. Era la tìa consentidora, mis hijos y sobrinos de verdad que la recuerdan mucho , mi hija tenìa casi tres años cuando ocurriò y ella la recuerda.


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Siento que para todos fue un golpe duro, esta experiencia no la habìamos vivido, mi padre quedò muy golpeado y mi madre despuès de este acontecimiento comenzo a manifestar Depresiòn, fue un tiempo de diversos cambios en casa.

Despuès de 3 años mi padre fue quien en un abrir y cerrar de ojos tambièn partiò, nunca imaginamos que serìa asì...por lo fuerte que estaba fìsicamente, nunca vimos que habìa en su interior , en sus emociones, què sentìa, era de poco hablar , poco expresarse, en estos temas se cosideraba tabù hablar de emociones.

Si, me sentì muy triste, aunque esa tristeza pasò màs ràpido que la de mi hermana, si lo llerè mucho...en varias oportunidades lo vi en sueños, me abrazaba, yo lloraba, una vez le pedì perdòn, otra vez le dije que lo amaba mucho...recuerdo que despertaba llorando.




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Ya en este tiempo, despertò mi gusto por conocer acerca del espìritu, que pasa con ello, porquè en los sueños se manifestaba mi padre y mi hermana fallecida, mis hermanos a veces tambièn comentaban acerca del tema, decìan : soñè com Pancha o soñe con papà, contaban su sueño y nos preguntabamos que te quiso decir. En esos tiempos el tema de la muerte y a donde va el espìrtu, si hay vida despuès de la vida terrenal estaban comenzando a manifestarse socialmente.

Vivì la experiencia con mi madre sus dos ùltimos años de vida y todo lo que vivì con ella me pareciò una experiencia de aprendizaje muy nutrida. Los temas de conversaciòn que tenìamos, me contaba mucho de abuela materna, lo que èsta les enseñaba a ella y a sus hermanos.

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Ya en los ùltimos meses de su vida, todo lo que decìa y hablaba describìa lo que veìa, por supuesto como ya este tema estaba en mis conocimientos tomè una postura acerca del mismo, me mantuve atenta a su desarrollo en este aspecto, fue increìble una señora que caminaba con ayuda, de la noche a la mañana ya no caminò màs, su voz llegò a tenerla como una niñita, yo sabìa que estaba sucediendo algo, dentro de mi no se que pasaba, la veìa con compasiòn y eso me diò mucha fuerza para entender el proceso, lo que decìa, ya no le interesaba si estaba solo conmigo, o no. Mis hermanos a la hora de su deceso ninguno estuvo presente.

Estuve tranquila, aunque despuès vinieron los estragos de esa tranquilidad que vivì como por dos meses...hasta que entendì el vacìo que sentìa en mi mundo interno.

Vivir cada día como si fuera el último no lo he tomado de esta manera, si más consciente de lo que siento en mi, sean emociones negativas o positivas, sentirlas en mi, en todo mi cuerpo soltándolas (soltando el sentimiento), todavía hay dolor en mi corazón (físicamente no se ve) aunque sé que debe salir y llenarlo de amor y paz para que este dolor y vacío no redunde en mi salud.


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Greetings Community #holos-lotus


How can I live my life to the fullest when I know that I can die at any moment?


Talking about life and death is a subject that in current times we find different opinions, versions, although the most important thing is how each one of us perceives the subject.

In retrospect, a family of 8 siblings, dad and mom, always together on important dates such as birthdays, baptisms, Christmas, New Year, many smiles.

The death of my maternal grandmother perhaps did not mean much to me for various reasons, which I later came to understand and heal...the truth is that I did not share much with her and her place of residence was far away in another city. My mother spent many months when my grandmother was already on God's path.

When my older sister passed away I feel it was very painful, my older sister, the companion of my parents, because the rest of us were already in universities, in the working world and starting a family. She was the spoiled aunt, my children and nieces and nephews really remember her very much, my daughter was almost three years old when it happened and she remembers her.


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I feel that for all of us it was a hard blow, we had not lived through this experience before, my father was very upset and my mother after this event began to show depression, it was a time of many changes at home.

After 3 years my father was the one who in the blink of an eye also left, we never imagined it would be like that...because of how strong he was physically, we never saw what was inside him, in his emotions, what he felt, he did not talk much, he did not express himself much, in these matters it was considered taboo to talk about emotions.

Yes, I felt very sad, although that sadness passed more quickly than my sister's, I will cry a lot...on several occasions I saw him in my dreams, he hugged me, I cried, once I asked him for forgiveness, another time I told him that I loved him very much...I remember that I woke up crying.




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Already in this time, my taste to know about the spirit awoke, what happens with it, why in the dreams my father and my deceased sister manifested, my brothers sometimes also commented about the subject, they would say: I dreamed with Pancha or I dreamed with dad, they would tell their dream and we would wonder what he wanted to tell you. In those times the subject of death and where the spirit goes, if there is life after earthly life was beginning to manifest itself socially.

I lived the experience with my mother during the last two years of her life and everything I experienced with her seemed to me to be a very nourishing learning experience. The topics of conversation we had, she told me a lot about my mother's grandmother, what she taught her and her siblings.

Already in the last months of her life, everything she said and talked about described what she saw, of course as this topic was already in my knowledge I took a position on it, I kept an eye on her development in this aspect, it was amazing a lady who walked with help, I knew that something was happening, inside me I don't know what was going on, I watched her with compassion and that gave me a lot of strength to understand the process, what she was saying, she was no longer interested in whether she was alone with me or not. At the time of her death, none of my siblings were present.


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I was calm, but then came the ravages of this tranquility that I lived for about two months ... until I understood the emptiness I felt in my inner world.

Living each day as if it were the last I have not taken it this way, but more aware of what I feel in me, whether negative or positive emotions, feeling them in me, in my whole body releasing them (releasing the feeling), there is still pain in my heart (physically not seen) although I know that it must come out and fill it with love and peace so that this pain and emptiness does not redound in my health.


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Muy fuerte todo lo que has pasado, me gusta mucho la forma en que concluyese. Te confieso que cuando ví la iniciativa no me sentí motivado con el tema, pero al leer tu post he sentido la necesidad de escribir. Bendiciones

Que bueno que mi escrito te inspirò.

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