Due to what happened to me last week, I've felt a little down in the days following that event in my life.
It sucks when someone steals from you but it sucks even more if what they stole was supposed to pay for daily expenses like rent and food. But every which way you want to turn it: It sucks!
But it only makes things worse if I stay within that negative energy. So I needed to shift it and turn it into something more positive.
The Shit that comes after
I have a chronic lack of time. Really. In my world, it would be awesome if I had a few more hours in the day as it is right now. So for something like this security breach to happen, it's another setback for me. Instead of working to put food on the table, I had to make sure my computer was secure. I've secured it as best as I could but I am still working through files and documents one by one to see if there's something hidden in them. And I have a HUGE number of photos. It's not even funny.
This past week I've felt like I could just punch a hole in the wall more often than not. And in moments like these, it's very hard to feel motivated to do...well... just about anything.
This means I've slacked on the housework. Yeah, the dishes are done but there are piles of laundry to be washed and sorted. The toilets are clean but my bedroom is in a really bad state. I sweep the floor. That's about it.
Aside from that, I didn't get any posts out on Hive, something that's really stupid because it would help me regain some of my losses at least.
I just felt like everything was going in the wrong direction lately and it didn't matter what I did, every step forward brings me 2 steps back.
Time to snap out of it
I gave myself a week to wallow in self-pity. It's enough. I suffer, the kids suffer, and the house suffers.
Enough!
Friday I decided to look at all the positives in my life.
My kids first and foremost. Hey, they're a pain in the butt sometimes but they're cool as could be too. I'm glad to have them in my life.
My friends. I have a few friends who jumped in right away. One gave me a few food items. She even apologized for not having more to give. I accepted it with gratitude. Others listened. In-person and online. It's good to be able to talk to people who understand how you would feel. Everyone has had their own similar experiences, so most people can relate.
And another friend helped me get most of my financial worries out of the way for now. I feel amazingly grateful for having such amazing human beings in my life.
Saturday we had planned a visit to the old neighborhood. It was the birthday of one of my kids' friends, and he was going there to spend it with his father. So we went there on Saturday evening. My youngest immediately headed for his best friend's house, while I hung around at the pool for a bit and sent a message to one of my friends in the place. She wasn't back yet from her day at the beach, so I decided to follow my youngest to see his friend's mother.
We had a chat for about half an hour, and just enjoyed the kids' hanging out together and playing happily. They had sure missed each other! Then my daughter came to tell me that my friend had arrived home, so I said my goodbyes and left to knock on their door.
We left around 11 pm but agreed to come back the next day because we hadn't seen everyone that we wanted to see. So we pretty much spent all weekend with the people there. We decided we'd do this more often since we only live across the city, not across the ocean haha. While we were there Sunday, my youngest son's friend just got back with her parents in the car. Her parents are such beautiful souls, but he works 6 days a week, so it's very hard to catch them both. He had just started his holiday from work that day, so we were lucky! So right away we planned another visit for next Friday. At our place this time. We're planning to have a barbeque at the pool so we can enjoy the day together there. I'm looking forward to it already! Then my daughter asked today if she could invite her friend & her family too, and of course, I agreed. The more the merrier!
All is well
I may have had a bad week but this weekend made everything so much better. I realized that all I needed to do was just to spend time with people I like and have a change of scenery. Leave the computer behind, and just connect with each other instead of staring at a screen, which won't change things. My mood immediately changed for the better, and with it, my energy shifted as well.
I think it's OK to wallow in self-pity for a bit, as it helps think of the next steps to take. But after a little while, it's good to get back on track and realize all the blessings we have in our lives, instead of letting setbacks dictate it.
I have more good people in my life than I could ever hope for. The kids have friendships now that I can see develop in friendships for life.
We live in a tropical paradise where one day is never like the one before.
And we have our health and many more blessings.
Time to put the worries aside, and look ahead into what the future may bring.
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