Growing up, I had this mentality that I didn't need anyone's help. I'm a very nice person; don't get it twisted, and I can give you anything that I have at any moment and also be there for you if you need me.
But I always have it in the back of my mind that everyone will leave one day, and obviously I don't need anything from you. I could remember when I was a child that I could stop talking to you if you passed your boundaries, and that could make our friendship not okay anymore. I mean, most times I don't give a fuck about who you are.
The worst thing I did as a child was to snub someone for a whole year—I mean, 365 days—that's so bad of me. Although we have been taught how to be content with whatever we have, this makes me believe I do not owe anyone anything, and anyone does not owe me anything.
I forgot that life is more than that. I keep growing up, and sometimes if I have issues with anyone or my friends, I will just act as if nothing happened and snub them. I keep losing friends. Even though I have friends, do not blame me; we all have our bad sides.
As time goes on, I keep changing, until one day. I met a lady who was so daring. I mean, if you are talking about a good person, she should be given an award for that. We keep up the vibes, and we actually like each other. Ho, my dear, not that kind of thing you are thinking about. So one day we had a misunderstanding, and I came on with the attitude that I didn't care. At this point, she was so sad about it, and she cherishes our relationship more than her own ego.
She called me and said, moremoney; that isn't how to keep a relationship, or else you will keep losing good people. Should I say I learned the hard way or the soft way? Anytime we have issues, she always comes back. Until one good day, she refused to come back and talk to me. A day passes, two days, and I was like, What is going on?
Ho I couldn't hold it the third day, so I went to pay a visit. I was like, Hey, I'm sorry. She said, How is that going to sound?She asked me, How do you feel now? I said I was relieved because I talked to you. She said that's how it should be; we fought, and we got back to talking. Fighting forever should not be the next solution. Your relationship is bigger than your ego.
If you ever have someone you need to say sorry to, then do it right away because, honestly, it goes a long way.
I must say that today, even before you offend me, I will use sorry to kill you. Just kidding. Thanks for reading my story.
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