For this week @LadiesofHive - Contest # 194, the questions are:
1️⃣ What is a big risk to take in life for you at this moment in time, and what is the least risk you feel around you?
~ 𝐀𝐍𝐃 / 𝐎𝐑 ~
2️⃣ How do you feel when alone answering your thoughts? Possibly you shared things in the past with your mother, grandmother, or sister — someone now no longer with you — do you turn to them asking what would they say if they were with you today? Please share those inner thoughts and fears you carry in your heart.
I am going to answer the second question about my thoughts, because this is a very touchy topic for me.
First of all I wish I could share my thoughts. I find it so difficult to express my thoughts to known people. I can listen to everyone and I do that regularly but I can never share my own thoughts and feelings, not even to my closest people. If there is any turbulence going on in my mind, it stays with me. That's a different thing that by now my hubby and son understand that there is something wrong with me because my body language changes and then they coax me to share it with them and by now I have also learned to dodge them...hehe. On my own I can never share.
This is my one weakness and grey area of life. I do not like to share my feelings and thoughts with anyone. I would like to keep them to myself. May be I fear of showing my vulnerable side to people. It's not that I do not accept it, I do that but I cannot share it and sometimes I become a victim of my own thoughts. I know it's always better to share and I preach that also all the time, because by sharing you release some burden from your heart and it also gives you a different perspective with other peoples advice.
There is an other side also to this, when in the situation I do not like to share but when I am out of the situation then I do not mind sharing it. Then it is like a story for me to narrate. For me if there is anything I want to share, there are only 2 people in my life who I trust the most and that's my hubby and son, so I only do it with them, specially my son, it is very easy to talk to him and he listens to me without making any judgements so I am very much comfortable sharing it with him.
The real thing is that I am a loner and I enjoying being that way.
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