I almost fell in to a "new job trap" earlier.
This is a phrase I've just made up but it's something I've fallen prey to before where I'm at the end of my BS tolerance with the current role and would seriously have taken anything to get out. In other words, letting emotion get the better of my career decisions... again!
However, as I was on the phone to a recruiter who found a "new job" earlier, I could feel the conversation was more driven by them looking to get a commission on getting me to move, rather than me wanting the role.
I don't know if you've ever felt that whole "this isn't for me" during one of those conversations but I knew pretty quickly that, well... it wasn't for me but I wanted to entertain the idea and see if I could convince myself.
Maybe it was just the numbing effects of the day job stopping me from feeling as much zest as the recruitment agent.
Or perhaps previous experience of diving in to a new job on emotion, from a job a recruiter found, which ended up being a horror show (although ultimately lead me to travel in 2019)...
As I write these words now, it's revealed to me that because it's not a role that I've gone out and actively sought myself, it didn't have that "wow" factor.
The motivation hadn't come from within but instead was external... and that then makes it very hard to convince yourself to "love" the idea of xyz job when it wasn't you who chose it.
When I went on a career workshop last September, it showed me that picking your life values that are most reflected in your current job is the way to go, rather than ticking boxes on a job spec.
It takes time to narrow down what you want to do but exploring options isn't a bad move either, as long as they are low risk such as speaking to people on the phone, reaching out on linkedin and little things like that to grow your network.
Something tells me that this year could be huge with a career change but I'm still going to keep probing.
It's only been 4 months but I just need to remember to patient, there's still plenty of sand left in the hourglass...
https://soundcloud.com/nickyhavey/hourglass-wip-2
I'm not sure if anyone can relate to this rant but it helped me sort some thoughts out anyway!
Nicky