Who doesn't struggle with emotional regulation? I bet we all have gone through some crazy times after Corona. And have seen a whole new us who doesn't know how to tackle our emotions like an adult.
Tell me I'm not the only one.
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I have shared in one of my early posts about how I've been struggling for the past few years, financially and mentally. However, this mental struggle is nothing new to me. There is something always going on behind my mind. I forced myself to suit social expectations. So I always feel like I'm caged in my body.
My soul lives elsewhere!
Whenever I shared this feeling with anyone, they said I was crazy. They would happily exchange my life with them as I don't have any visible problems. How can I show them what's going on inside my head?
It's like a long fight to pretend I am happy, and doing great. To be honest, I don't have any visible problems. I do live a very normal life. But as I have mentioned I never achieved any of my actual dreams. But live a very opposite life.
I thought I would be a free bird, would travel more, and enjoy the outdoor life. But I'm living a very family life, doing everyday job, and taking care of everyday responsibilities.
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I'm still in a dilemma that this is not an actual problem but most of us have this in our mind. On the other hand, I have seen people say they always wanted a family life. So I get confused as to why I'm not happy. Maybe it was never my dream, maybe I'm not meant for this life.
Or maybe I'm thinking too much and ungrateful about what I have.
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The continuous thought in between these two goes on and on and on.
A few days ago, I accidentally came across a post outside Hive where the content creator was saying how they were feeling the same. The person went to therapy and now living this regular life. No, he didn't say goodbye to his old life but learned to adapt better.
He was saying how his therapist helped him understand that he is not crazy but his emotions are valid.
And you know what, this is what needed to hear. I needed someone to tell me my emotions were valid a long time ago.
I'm not going back, I wouldn't exchange my life, I wouldn't leave what I have. But knowing that what I always felt was not crazy was much needed. It will help me to understand and take action accordingly.
Now all I can do is accept.
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So if you are struggling with anything and sometimes think that you are crazy for your thoughts; know that they are not. No emotions are crazy but they are valid to you. You are entitled to feel however you feel.
Chose the right thing for yourself and value your inner feelings.
Your @peacefulsoul